Complexity meets simplicity..
I can never comprehend the workings of a male brain. Should I say it is simplistic in nature or the males choose to selectively ignore the undesirable aspects? Perhaps I do still belong to the old school of thoughts. In my opinion, it is best not to go out individually with a guy (who used to like me) but has just gotten attached. Not that I no longer regard him as a friend, instead it is for the best interests of both parties. It is my guiding principle never to get myself into a situation which compromises my integrity. Why risk getting misunderstood when I could have averted it by going out in groups? However understanding a girl may be, she definitely would feel uneasy, knowing that his boyfriend is going out with another girl, what more a girl he used to like. Call me narrow-minded or a stick-in-the-mud, but well… do not onto others what you do not want others to do onto you. I definitely do not wish for my boyfriend to go out with other girls when we are together. The tortures of having to act nonchalant when deep inside you are struggling with anxiety. Of course we should always be self-secure and have faith in our partner. Being overly-dependent and 'sticky' will suffocate the other party. What puzzles me is the timing. It is perplexing to know my boyfriend rather goes out with his friends than spend quality time with me, especially if we have just become official. If I have just gotten together with a guy I really like, I will be like an OK-band (plaster). That is the so-called honeymoon period in a relationship and there is no reason why either will choose to spend time with others. Again, that’s just my idealistic view of a romance. Sometimes, I cant help but wonder, am I the only one who still thinks so much?
As though I do not have enough on my plate, I was dished another. It just goes to prove that my hypothesis was right. Someone just drop a sudden bomb on me which caught me totally off-guard. It has never crossed my mind that he may develop a liking for me. How true it is that love strikes when you least expect it.
Someone commented that I seem to be very resistant to relationships. In a sense, he may be right. Somehow, I have very little faith in a genuine, long-lasting relationship in today’s context. The sparks usually die off so rapidly and the passion sizzles off with no warning signs. After the courtship, the man usually becomes complacent and puts in less effort to maintain the relationship. Isn't that a cause for worry that is unless I can accept the fact that it is an inevitable fact of life. Does that mean I plan to remain single for the rest of my life? Hmm.. I am leaving it in God’s hands. He works in mysterious ways and someday He will bring the right person at the right time into my life. For all I know, the person may already be there just that the time is not ripe. *.^
However much I desire to go for the movie trip, I have to stay behind and take charge of my flock. I do miss watching movies in large groups. -_- I want to go on holiday. Anyone for short budget trips?
