Complexity meets simplicity..
the Number ONE bane of my life is a two-legged animal with feathers - chicken. after close to one year of abstinence (though occasionally i do sneak a bite or two? oops!), the moment i let my guard down, there goes all my effort. not only does it cause me to have hormonal imbalance, it makes me sick. bleahz.. no more chicken till my condition stabilizes. -____-
greatly blessed. indeed, Man, begin to fulfil the purpose given to you and walk the path mapped out for you! your purpose determines your potential. a man must have a clear vision, learn to communicate more, to provide, protect and lead his partner. together they can move on to greater heights. Man, do not hide in the comfort of your present self any more. instead, step out and regain dominance. let your other half wait no longer, reveal your true potential! *.~
someone asked me for my home address. usually i am quite hesitant as i wouldnt exactly welcome visitors to my house. not that i am hostile but my house is not exactly neat and tidy. since someone said i can expect a surprise in the mail, i gave it to him. the first time i gave my address was to lewei. received two cards from him in the mail. not surprisingly i still have them among my treasures. chanced upon them the other day while i was clearing my belongings. read them and it brought back fond memories. i always feel that in this present time and age, it is rare to receive letters by post. most people prefer the electronic method, which to me, lacks a personal touch and less sincerity. i definitely prefer the more traditional method of comunication to new media. second person who asked for my home address was kelvin. received a bouquet of roses and a teddy by delivery. that was the very first time i receive roses on valentine's day. no doubt i was very touched by his thoughtfulness. anyway back to present day, what can i expect in the mail? just have to wait and see. ^.^
Friday, June 27, 2008
exactly 2 weeks to my commencement! another milestone in my life. following that will be full plunge into the work force. excitement? definitely! i guess i am not one who likes to study. lol.
collected my gown and mortarboard the other day. though i am not exactly that small in build and i got the smallest size, it still seemed a little over-sized for me. makes me wonder how it will look on other girls who are much smaller and slimmer than me? cant imagine.
i think the NUS graduation lion plush is so very nice! anyone going to get it for me? lol. doubt it though. actually come to think of it, one of the plushes i bought in a shop outside for my graduating friends are comparable in price.
it's weird. the weather over the past few days had been warm but yet here i am, sneezing as if i caught a cold. bleahz. after blowing my nose for 2 consecutive days, my nose may just drop off soon. it's especially uncomfortable when i am teaching. my student's parent asked me to take more vitamin C and said i probably need more rest. indeed. lately i am kind of tired out. not getting any younger i suppose. haha.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
i am truly blessed to have students who appreciate me and never fail to think of me. ~.^ i wonder how many parents actually sit down and have a meal with their children's tutor? how many parents would actually get gifts for the tutor when they go for a holiday? not only that, the love and concern they shower upon me is more than i can ask for. indeed i am thankful for the favour of man God has given me.
love is not reliance just as solitude is not loneliness. it is a grey line separating the two, small wonder misunderstandings arise. people tend to confuse feelings of emotional attachment as feelings of affection. when two get too used to the company of each other, the bond they share start to create notions of fondness and warp their mind. such is the mystery of the human mind. of course this is not saying that love cannot stem from friendship, in fact more often than not, it does. the key is to be able to differentiate whether the feelings are truly that of adoration or merely those of familiarity. (sounds abit too idealistic and logical?) not that i am some love guru. but in my humble opinion, love is when you will give selflessly; when you will rather spend time with the person doing inconsequential things when you could have been using the same time to do something of importance; when you place the needs of the other priority over your own. definitely this may vary from individual to individual. each of us has different love lingo meaning as unique individuals, we have different ways of expressing love. according to Dr. Gary Chapman, everyone has 5 love languages through which they express love to others and receive love from others:
A - Acts of Service
this involves actions of kindness and love to our loved ones
P - Physical Touch
this includes hugs, pats and other actions of love
A - Affirmative Words
this involves praises, compliments and words of encouragement
R - Receiving Gifts
this is the more tangible aspect in which appreciation is expressed in terms of cards and rewards
T - Time Together
this involves spending quality time together
needless to say, these 5 are not mutually exclusive. instead, they co-exist. all of us sets a certain standard for each aspect. depending on the individual, age and character, a particular aspect may be ranked of higher importance but not the others.
take for example, myself. i consider myself a girl of high maintainence. my love lingo scores high in almost every aspect. in terms of giving love, i will express it through acts of service, giving small tokens and time together. on the other hand, receiving love demands more of physical touch like a pat on the head, affirmative words and time spent together. i guess i am very much a baby. lol. *.^
Saturday, June 21, 2008
parting is such sweet sorrow. indeed. within these 2 weeks, i will get a taste of it not once but thrice. it wasnt that long ago when i myself walked through the departure gate. now it's reversal of roles. instead, i am the one bidding farewell and wishing him/her a safe journey. of course my trip cant be compared to the rest. mine was merely 8 days while the rest would be gone for at least 2 months. speaking of which, i miss my dear! i suppose she'll be back at the end of the year?
people around me keep telling me it's my season. season of what?? that i shall not say much. lol.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
had a great time at Mind Cafe last night. i should seriously consider finding a part time job there. wahaha. in fact i think i do qualify lah. ^.* not that i want to boast, but i feel i know half as much if not more than what the people working there know. wahaha. anyway back to the main point, it's been a super long time since we had our class gathering. not that it can be classified as one cos it's always the usual group of people who turn up. hahaz. nonetheless, it was still quality over quantity. ;p
looking forward to the next gathering. singing karaoke at the ten dollar place. *.* time to kill chicken. lol.
my memory is fast eluding me. the other day, a guy was waving at me but i just cant place him. oops. sounds abit mean but my memory is really like a sieve. i received a call from my student's mother. amusing. according to her, there's a girl in the 7pm show on channel 8 who looks like me. wondered if i had gone to become a day player. wahaha. i think i have a common look lah. :p
Friday, June 13, 2008
been a while since i last updated. not that i was really busy but i have a new addiction. x.x the recurring, compulsive act of engaging in an activity. i am now a regular at viwawa and the game that really intrigues me is none other than bridge. i guess i have been intoxicated by the people around me. lol. or perhaps i am just playful by nature? haha
celebrated mummy's birthday at some restaurant. buffet. i think i am really getting old. (oops. insensitive remark) i dont seem to eat as much as before. in any case, it was a good time spent together. mummy was elated cos daffodil sang birthday song for her. that's the charm of a grandchild. haha
sometimes i marvel at how blur and clumsy i can be. always losing my my way and going on a merry-go-round. worse is hurt my toe while opening the door. thought that it is just a bruise but before i know it, blood really ooze out like tap water. boohoo.
Sunday, June 08, 2008
the greatest of all is love!
after a hectic day of attending to the nitty gritty of the wedding, i am bushed. to think i am not even the bride. such is the power of love. it gives you the strength and tenacity. kudos to all committed couples. but ultimately, it was by the grace of God that everything worked out fine. all in all, being an auntie was an eye-opening experience.
happened to chance upon this while clearing up my inbox. quite meaningful.
A girl in love asked her boyfriend.
Girl (G) : Tell me... who do you love most in this world?
Boy(B) : You, of course!
(G) : In your heart, what am I to you?
(B) : The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib."
In the Bible, it was said that God saw that Adam was lonely. During his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart.
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a long while. However, the youthful couple, due to busy schedule of modern life, the never-ending worries of daily problems, began to drift apart and their life became mundane. All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.
One day, after a quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!" The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!" Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like water poured away, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined to break-up. Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go. she continued, "It is less painful this way... let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."
Five years have since gone by. He had never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. she had left the country and back. she had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him. On one dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.
One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good-byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.
(B): How are you?
(G): I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?
(B): No.
(G): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.
(B): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.
With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye. Good-bye.. Is it forever not meeting each other again? One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York. In the event that shocked the world. Midnight. Once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew, she was his missing rib that he had carelessly broken.
Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not, the outcome(s) could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations 99% of the time on our loved ones. And even though we know that we ought to "think twice, act wise", it's often easier said than done. Things happen day by day, which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment of our lives and everyone in our lives. "Tomorrow never comes; give and take what you have today" Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever. Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.
Friday, June 06, 2008
i am very, very inspired! your job is your calling, specially designed and built in right from the beginning. never under-estimate your capability. instead, excel in your calling. when you put your whole heart into doing something, you will succeed and reap abundantly. who we are, the values we hold, will be imparted to the next generation. keep your own personal life in check. our actions have impacts on how their lives transpire. such power and responsibility rest upon us as the destiny of future leaders lie in our hands. we are educators of tomorrow! rise up a new generation of children with the right attitude and sound values. let not us be slaves of the system. be the life and spread your passion!
Thursday, June 05, 2008
i have officially scribbled my name on the dotted line. is teaching really my cup of tea? i truly hope so. i remember a few months back, i was convicted in my heart, still am though, to make an impact in the society. the campus is where future leaders are moulded! and that is where i want to be. ^.*
i am very enticed to go on a holiday again. *_# though there are budget constraints.
come saturday, i will be attending a wedding as an isolated individual for the second time. not as exhilarating as the first. but nonetheless, being the jie meis, i am kind of nervous. haha. primarily because i have no idea what to expect. you should be worried when u hear the kind of pranks played on jie meis, though it should have been the other way round? aye.. whatever comes my way.
lately, my eldest sister started to have this weird notion. told my mother i will get married next year. duhz.. getting married when i dont even have a boyfriend?! that sounds kind of impossible. according to her, i share the same destiny as my third sister. faints. how convincing are tarot cards? supposedly i will marry a guy who does not love me as much as i love him. i definitely do not wish for that to happen. i guess that's a selfish mentality but at least it will save me a lot of heartaches. though subconsciously, i feel that ultimately i still prefer to give than to receive. aye...
alright. i realised my thoughts are kind of random today. perhaps cos my brain is kind of drained. i need to go on a shopping spree~ retail therapy always works. not forgetting the nightmare i had this morning when i rummaged through my clothes looking for formal clothes. roar!
Monday, June 02, 2008
i'm back! i hope my presence was greatly missed. lol. after 8 days of fun and enjoyment, i was actually kind of reluctant to come home to Singapore. there are still so many places i want to go and many things unaccomplished. yet, i am not experiencing as much withdrawal symptoms either. oddly, i am even relieved to come back home - no more bingeing on rice day in and day out. phew. indeed graduation trip had been a most eye-opening experience with memories which will last a lifetime. Korea is definitely a distinctively different country compared to Singapore, with fascinating landscapes and remarkable culture. Hong Kong, on the other hand, is very much similar to Singapore, albeit it has more natural landscapes and attractions.
words alone are insufficient so we had taken hundreds of photos which will be uploaded to facebook. a picture speaks a thousand words so theoretically speaking, i need not illustrate much. haha. through it all, i am glad we went on the trip. though there were occasional disgruntlements, it was a priceless experience. the people we meet and the things we were exposed to can never be achieved without personally going through it. no regrets.
