Complexity meets simplicity..
ROAR! i am so angry now. not just angry with XYZ but also angry with myself. my friends asked me why did i not learn a lesson? oh well, indeed i have only myself to blame. i should know better than to do projects with people who do not bother. now, i am just stuck in a situation where i have to do everything all by myself! does it help that we are not just doing 1 project together but 3?! i should have heeded everyone's advice and find someone more responsible right? i could but i didn't want to be mean. but now, who really cares about that. as in you can be nice to a person only to find yourself being taken advantage of ultimately. they just don't appreciate and take you for granted! sit there and wait for the harvest without putting in any effort. bleahz.. i seriously hate myself for getting myself into such a fix. when will i learn to be firm?
enough of my rantings. back to my individual 'group' project drafting. argh!
at least there is still something to look forward to.
309 class gathering tomorrow (later in fact) ~.^
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
this week is indeed a week of many firsts! visited the doctor at YIH for the very first time since i entered NUS. been sick for almost a week and i finally made my way to the clinic to get some medications. apparently the doctor thought i was there to con him of a medical certificate, at least that was the feeling he gave initially. but i guess subsequently he saw that i was genuine and not faking an illness. thus, i was prescribed a cough mixture and cream for my bruises. ^.* sadly, i was not successful in getting medicine to treat my headache. perhaps he worries my condition may be worsened considering that i am allergic to paracetamol? i guess i am slightly exaggerated over my injury but i seriously think i hurt my nervous system. a tugging pain whenever i walk. according to Alister, i should go find a boyfriend to carry me up the numerous flights of stairs in school. what kind of bad excuse to get attached is that? tsk..
got back the test results for organic chem. surprisingly i did not fail though i was sick and only studied for it in 2 hours. guess my creativity really work wonders? not that the grade was anything to boast about but i must really thank God for showing favour over me. ^.^ organic has always been horribly difficult for me but this time, i actually fared better than expected. great! i just pray that IA would turn out fine too.
am i getting paranoid or something? i shudder at the very thought of how the thief looked me in the eye before grabbing my handphone and run. my heart really really chills and i worry that the thief remembers how i look like. what's more i think he overheard where i stay when the police asked me. roar! i may just die from fear and insecurity soon.
God, please grant me the peace of mind!
Sunday, October 14, 2007
for the first time in my life, i realised that Singapore isnt such a safe place afterall. perhaps i have just been too naive and pampered all along. it's time i become more world-wise. i guess complacency results in us letting our guards down and that's when misfortunes arise.
visited Geylang East Community Library for the first time and indeed it was a most extraordinary experience. was happily doing my lab report on my laptop when i saw a hand reach for the handphone beside me. the snatch thief actually took off with my N73 right before my eyes?! thank God i was alert and immediately chased after him. i actually forsook my laptop( over 1k) in pursuit of my handphone? come to think of it, i was rather irrational. in any case, i ran down the stairs after him and fell halfway down. how clumsy can i get? does it help that i was wearing a skirt? it was only at that instant that i managed to find my voice back and shouted for help. he was almost out the entrance but good thing the security guard got hold of him after much aggressive struggling. i was so shaken and traumatised after the whole incident my legs trembled when the library staff assisted me to the office to rest. for once, it dawned on me that what we always see on crime watch can actually happen to me in reality.
in the room, the staff fussed over me and made sure i was safely kept away from the thief. he pleaded to be let off because it's his new year and i was willing to let the matter rest but the police has already been alerted. waited for the police to come and take my statement which wasnt that detailed because i could barely recall every single thing that happened. which hand did he use to take, what exactly did i shout and how the thief was caught? everything just took me by surprise and i was so stunned i barely had time to react, not to forget i fell flat on the floor. how to see who apprehended him? according to a passer-by, he helped in nabing the thief too?
some revelations after the whole incident:
1. How could he try to rob a child of God. that explains why he didnt suceed. ^.*
2. I look like i am from China that's why i was robbed, according to the library staff.
3. I am privileged enough to set the first day right for the AETOS security guard. It was actually his first day at work.
4. I finally understood how impossible it is to remain calm and not panic when attacked.
5. I am truly blessed to have friends who are concerned about me.
i cant wait for 9th December to come... that's the day my dear will depart from Australia back home! *.^ though it will only be 2 months but better than nothing. was chatting on msn last night and one word describes how i felt throughout the conversation- touched. warm, fuzzy feeling of love and friendship that not many can comprehend. i miss all the times we had, going out together, working at memoirs together. !_! oh well.. absence makes the heart grow fonder. it is only when you lose it that you start to treasure it. at least i'm still my dear's one and only. ^.~
i am still under the weather... it seems like most everyone is suffering from the same illness as me. my guess is the unpredictable weather is the culprit. so... everyone please take care and drink more water k?
standing firm in my circumstances
Monday, October 08, 2007
how do you know when you are recognized as an adult? simple. when you receive a wedding invitation card addressed to you. for once, your presence is not part of a family affair but that of an independent self. wasnt I excited when i received Willy and Jill's Invitation card to their wedding matrimony and dinner! the very first time I saw my name printed instead of my parents. *.^ I am so looking forward to the event!
sometimes I feel so blessed. ^.^
Your overflowing kindness and favor over my life warms my heart immeasurably....
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
another milestone- my 500th post! all in a short span of 4 years~ come to think of it, it isnt such a remarkable feat afterall. a mere 125 entries in average per year. oh well..
my house suddenly feels so empty and quiet. reason being the life of our family is no longer around. daffodil has gone back home to stay with her mother for good! sob... after close to 2 years, all of us are just so accustomed to her funny antics. in particular, my mother seemed to have lost her center of attention. now, she has transferred her attention back on us. of late, i realised that my mother is really vulnerable too. feeling bad because so often, i had been busy with my own stuff and i neglected her feelings inadvertently. suddenly i feel a sense of urgency because my parents are not getting any younger. i guess it is about time i get some loving right. *.~
how wonderful can life be when there are so many forbidden fruits?
