Complexity meets simplicity..
great! this is getting ugly. apparently i got slammed but.. i will not stoop to that level of name-calling and making malicious remarks. i understand how it feels - horrible. my eyes stung but i braced myself. it isnt worth getting upset because that will give him much pleasure. instead what i can do is reflect on where i went wrong.
oh yes! i must be brainless and living in my own fantasy world. why did i even think the guy is hitting on me when he said things like 'we should get together' and 'i want to have an open relationship with you'? that is just something a guy will tell anyone, what more a whore like me? tsk.. the problem of taking words seriously. i have only my own foolishness and hyper-imagination to blame. all the chemicals i used to do my hair must have aggravated my stupidity right? and i dont even know how to gather all my friends to mock at the other person, even to the extent of making demeaning jokes about his/her appearance. wow~ i guess i have plenty to learn. question now is, do i want to do all that? NO! i want to act spiritual and victimized, just as he said. i admit i aint a goody-two-shoes christian but does that give you a right to judge me?
i am not an arts student (not referring to all but just some) which explains why i cant 'cut-and-paste', sieve out information here and there, and..... wala!~ i have a completely new story! that explains why i do so badly in university eh? i dont know how to smoke my way through and i am bad in writing essays, especially argumentative ones which require me to rebut specific to a point. i am indeed a true-blue science student who cant communicate with arts students (isnt that contradictory when most of my friends are there?) i really need to learn to be a writer, know how to fabricate stories and distort facts such that people will share my opinion and sympathize with me. oh! one more thing i need to improve on, my language. i talk in parables and always use words that are not found in the dictionary, for example "aye". thank God i found its meaning on wikipedia.
so now i am sorry i caused some people much distress over my own flaws and for invasion of his privacy (yes, i am bold enough to say i read his blog just now and it shall also be the last time). call me a coward but i shall spare myself the agony from the subsequent backlash since i am sure i wouldnt like what i am going to read. why should i be made to suffer for another person's freedom of speech? everyone is free to speak their mind on their blogs. if you dont like what you read, you can choose not to read. you can whine or ridicule me for all i care, be it in your blog or in front of your friends. apparently i was just TOO straight-forward in blogging. when a person really really gets on my nerves, i will just ignore him totally. why should i bother to explain myself or talk things out with a poser? considering what a no-brainer i am, how will i know how to determine when it is the truth or when it is a lie? i should steer clear rather than be labelled shameless again.
thanks to all my friends (NOTE: anything more than 1 is plural, that includes 2. in case some have not figured it out) for trusting and supporting me (even when i could be the one who is lying). aint i glad i have understanding and discerning friends.
lunchie at Novotel was good. everyone was nice to me and my new manager even pulled the chair out for me. there are many other things in life to be happy and thankful for. *.*
