Complexity meets simplicity..
as recommended by val, i did a personality test at www.drawahouse.com and.... i must say my house looks pretty decent! considering how bad in art i am. lol
Based on the drawing and the 10 answers i gave, this is a summary of my personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.
You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. We also see that you are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. You are self-confident and happy with your life.
indeed my mood is as good as the weather outside. *.^
follwing a merciless public outlash comes an apology over msn? oh.. how sincere is that? even if the apology comes a 100 million times, do you think it can actually offset everything? sure. i did think of the consequences when i blogged that first entry. i expected you to curse my entire ancestral family too! why did you just humiliate me and forget all about my family members? if you want to be hailed as a hero, you have failed. you can try harsher blows next time. go on and keep that entry there. let all avid readers have a great laugh over it. i am sure they have not have enough fun yet! i guess readership must have also hit an all-time high? congratulations! what is the point of removing the entry now? you cant take back what you said, be it verbally or in writing. oh yes! of course the intention of the entry is just in response to mine. a pity i will not remove mine because each entry serves as a reminder to me of things (good or bad) that happen to me.
if you think that my replying over msn is a sign of reconciliation, it isnt. i have not learnt to be as forgiving as God. i cant pretend that nobody called me ugly names and scorned me. i aint a magnanimous person. (NOTE:aint=am not. check wikipedia if you wish) try bashing up a person real bad and the bruised person still kiss the ground you walk on. now, that will convince me to forgive and forget. but like i always said, i am petty and narrow-minded. will i not become weary of you after this whole incident? or did you think i will be elated and embrace you after reading the entry? i am sure you thought of the consequences before you published the post too. the moment you decided to retaliate with vicious statements, the fate of whatever friendship we had is sealed. so what game are you playing now? be a man and stop trying to turn the tables on me.
a reason as to why i have been ignoring you? there isnt any explanation. if you insist, i am sure you can find clues from all my past entries. alright. this entry shall put a full-stop to the whole episode, at least on my side of course. feel free to condemn me on your blog. dont disappoint your fans. i wouldnt be reading it anyway and i surely wouldnt be seeing them in future.
lesson learnt.
you have no right to ask me how i feel
back to happier stuff worth mentioning. had a great dinner with val at MOF (Ministry of Food). nothing beats japanese food(other than HK steamed milk)! yummilicious~ thanks val for an enjoyable time and Zara sale is really crazy. luckily i am out with you else i will spend again. must meet up more often k? badminton on sat~ will let you know the time again ya?
i miss my dear.. talked over msn last night. so much to say but so restricted. argh..
Thursday, June 28, 2007
great! this is getting ugly. apparently i got slammed but.. i will not stoop to that level of name-calling and making malicious remarks. i understand how it feels - horrible. my eyes stung but i braced myself. it isnt worth getting upset because that will give him much pleasure. instead what i can do is reflect on where i went wrong.
oh yes! i must be brainless and living in my own fantasy world. why did i even think the guy is hitting on me when he said things like 'we should get together' and 'i want to have an open relationship with you'? that is just something a guy will tell anyone, what more a whore like me? tsk.. the problem of taking words seriously. i have only my own foolishness and hyper-imagination to blame. all the chemicals i used to do my hair must have aggravated my stupidity right? and i dont even know how to gather all my friends to mock at the other person, even to the extent of making demeaning jokes about his/her appearance. wow~ i guess i have plenty to learn. question now is, do i want to do all that? NO! i want to act spiritual and victimized, just as he said. i admit i aint a goody-two-shoes christian but does that give you a right to judge me?
i am not an arts student (not referring to all but just some) which explains why i cant 'cut-and-paste', sieve out information here and there, and..... wala!~ i have a completely new story! that explains why i do so badly in university eh? i dont know how to smoke my way through and i am bad in writing essays, especially argumentative ones which require me to rebut specific to a point. i am indeed a true-blue science student who cant communicate with arts students (isnt that contradictory when most of my friends are there?) i really need to learn to be a writer, know how to fabricate stories and distort facts such that people will share my opinion and sympathize with me. oh! one more thing i need to improve on, my language. i talk in parables and always use words that are not found in the dictionary, for example "aye". thank God i found its meaning on wikipedia.
so now i am sorry i caused some people much distress over my own flaws and for invasion of his privacy (yes, i am bold enough to say i read his blog just now and it shall also be the last time). call me a coward but i shall spare myself the agony from the subsequent backlash since i am sure i wouldnt like what i am going to read. why should i be made to suffer for another person's freedom of speech? everyone is free to speak their mind on their blogs. if you dont like what you read, you can choose not to read. you can whine or ridicule me for all i care, be it in your blog or in front of your friends. apparently i was just TOO straight-forward in blogging. when a person really really gets on my nerves, i will just ignore him totally. why should i bother to explain myself or talk things out with a poser? considering what a no-brainer i am, how will i know how to determine when it is the truth or when it is a lie? i should steer clear rather than be labelled shameless again.
thanks to all my friends (NOTE: anything more than 1 is plural, that includes 2. in case some have not figured it out) for trusting and supporting me (even when i could be the one who is lying). aint i glad i have understanding and discerning friends.
lunchie at Novotel was good. everyone was nice to me and my new manager even pulled the chair out for me. there are many other things in life to be happy and thankful for. *.*
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
did i just speak to ali for 40 minutes on the phone? faints.. not like it is a super big issue but the thing is... i called him using my mobile! bleahz.. considering the usual short calls i make, i could have used the same talktime at least 20 times! call me stingy or what. of course i wouldnt mind if we were talking about anything important that is. mmz.. can karaoke be considered important? ahaz. he better arrange the singing session well. finally! been saying that even before exams started. if not i aint going lectures with him next year. lol
Die Hard 4.0 wasnt that bad afterall. i didnt get a chance to doze off. lol. apart from the jackie chan style of exaggerated stunts, the rest of the movie was enjoyable. beautiful women, funny jokes and bruce willis blend nicely. not like some other show which is full of stunts but a hollow plot.
looked for hui at pageone after work since i am super early for the screening. they have quite a large collection of books, comics and magazines! wow~ anyway we started talking about this guy. i am sure you read my blog though you always claim you dont. i can only use one word to describe what i felt at the end of the conversation - disgust. if you think you are being very funny by hitting on 2 good friends at the same time, you are wrong! let me tell you straight. you aint fit to cause a drift between us. grow up and be mature about this. if you cant get over your ex, dont attempt to use other girls as a cover. in conclusion, both of us have decided that it isnt worth expending our energy over this joker. actually didnt want to expose you outrightly cos hui will feel awkward when she sees you in class but... please please be mature ok. if you are capable of pulling this kind of stunt on us, i cant see what is so difficult for you to act innocent and pretend nothing is wrong. anyway, you should have been prepared that your cover will be blown before long. as for me, please leave me out of your 'playdoll' list in future. kamsahamida.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
busy busy week ahead. meeting friends whom i have not met for a long long time.. tonight is the gala premiere of Die Hard 4.0 at vivocity. woo~ watching it with Richard, my sister and her bf. special thanks to my korean student, Jae Yun! tomorrow will be meeting jer for dinner at central. i guess the last time i met her was close to 2 years ago?! that is like how many donkey years ago. thursday will be spent with val. the last time we met was during exam time? not good. we should meet up more often! and... that leaves me free for the weekends meaning i aint so busy afterall! lol. i hope i wouldnt be tempted to spend again though i have a feeling i will. considering gst is going to increase once again! buy in advance and dine in cafes and restaurants before the hike. ahaz. i sound like an auntie now.
ps: DOS gers gathering next friday at Orchard. please mark the date down.
Monday, June 25, 2007
why do people like to say things in the heat of the moment only to regret it later? which do you prefer? to be impetuous or to be clear-headed?i would rather the other person to keep his cool and shut his mouth till he has deliberated the consequences of what is going to come out of his mouth. why so? all because i am a spiteful girl. if you say anything mean to me, i will probably reciprocate with a not-so-polite reply. either that or i will ignore the person completely. no point continuing the conversation as it will just blow up the matter even more. so what if you apologise later? the harm is already done. once, twice, thrice.. eventually it will snowball to a point when the hurt is so great that no amount of apologies can salvage the situation. not that i dont like to talk things out. in fact i believe it is better to talk things out than to keep it to myself. i will probably explode with so much unhappiness kept inside. the key is to say things out nicely and not in an accusatory manner. what else do you expect when the person had already expressed his remorse? am i angry? nope. just disappointed. i admit i am a difficult woman to please. at least i am truthful about it. lol
i must be addicted to shopping. i actually bought 3 pairs of shoes in 2 days?! not forgetting i still have 3 new pairs in the shoe cabinet. i really really am not going to shop anymore! (perhaps just window-shopping?)
looming dark clouds, greyish sky and choppy sea signal another day of heavy rain..
Saturday, June 23, 2007
i am actually home so early on a sat night.. all thanks to the guy who flew me aeroplane.. well.. i guess girlfriend is more important than girl friend. but still i hate people to go back on their word. somemore he initiated to meet since 2 weeks ago and now not even a message to inform that we are not meeting?! officially blacklisted.
now that i am home i am lazy to go out. too tired to meet brian cos i rather have my beauty sleep.. lol. watched Hot Fuzz with caleb last night. a hilarious show with lots of british humor. not a bad show to catch. next movie to watch is Die Hard 4.0 though i dont really fancy action-packed shows. but they are free tickets from my korean student so the most i will doze off in the theatre. haha.
i think i need to set my priorities right again. been too caught up with my own things such that i lost my focus and forgot my resolution. i had made a pact but i had somehow failed to fulfil.. i seem to be deviating further away as the days go by.. was reminded once again during service today. it's really time for me to orientate my life and seek out my purpose. a pure heart is what i long for
Friday, June 22, 2007
am i getting predictable or the guys around me are more sensitive? a little of each i suppose. although i did not say it out and without the aid of visual and audio expression, they can still sense my temperaments. how did they get the impression that i am feeling moody? i am amazed! anyway thanks for cheering me up! ")
when you think of all the things you do not have, you have nothing. when you think of all the things you have, you have everything! (quoted from jx who quoted from somewhere else)
isnt it funny that i am always playing love consultant when i havent much experience myself? but well.. i never reject people asking me for help. as for whether my advice works.. it really depends on whether the girl's mind and heart work the same way as mine. lol.
yeah~ it is finally the weekend! each day drags like eternity when there is nothing to look forward to.. dreadful job which is changing my opinion of working life. not that i prefer studying now but i am just kind of put off by office politics. you will be amazed at how bitchy men can be too and all the stunts people pull just to wriggle out of their work.
val: joyce can only make it mon-thurs. qi say she prefer tues. u okay with that?
Thursday, June 21, 2007
sometimes i feel like an idiot.. or perhaps i really am one.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
was listening to 883 and jiafa reminded me of something i had wanted to blog about. when i was in tw, i watched this singing contest 超级星光大道 on television and i must say taiwanese are very good singers. in fact, one of the contestants sang 背叛 by gary cao which was superb! his rendition of the song was so much better than the singer himself. i was truly amazed! you guys should hear it for yourself. (oops.. will i get sued for defaming him? i am just giving my two cents worth of opinion)
i read this article in a magazine. about how this guy lost a girl he really liked and had a special bond with. she had the character-interesting and fun to be with, just the type of girl he likes except for the image. she wasnt exactly what he imagined his girlfriend to be - long hair with a good figure( straight out of a magazine front cover? duhz.. how many girls actually look like that?) as a result, he did not trust his heart but his mind instead. serves him right for missing out on a great relationship! i guess man are really egomaniac and superficial. my advice is: let your heart lead the way.
ladies night out. treated mummy and sisters to dinner at mushroom pot- my favorite eating place. it's been eons since we had a proper meal together. i guess that is the problem with a big family when everyone is busy with their own priorities. so now i am feeling fat again- no thanks to my deskbound job.. an excuse to get new clothes though. lol. bought a pair of Levi's jeans. oh no.. am i fast becoming materialistic?
isnt it a wonderful weather to sleep in today? alas i had to pull myself out from the comfort of my cosy bed! brr.. i hate mornings to be so cold.. it is ideal for sleeping but definitely not bathing.. considering how cold-intolerant i am, is it any wonder i am skeptical about going to countries with 4 seasons? though undoubtedly, i would very much like to experience winter! guess the only way out is to wrap myself like a dumpling. lol
my colleague is finally back from tibet after 10 days. sounds like a fun trip, especially the train ride. i also want to go experience the beauty of a less developed country! and i just realised that there is still vacancy for the desaru trip but.... why is everyone busy at that time?!
i cant believe balloting for this year's NDP is over already?! to think i missed the chance to go. i so want to go because i believe it is going to be a totally new experience. sigh. i am too late. once again..
val: i think the tagboard is malfunctioning. actually you can just type and tag then press R to refresh and your post will appear.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
contentment. i guess this is one attribute everyone should possess. a person who is covetous will never understand the simple joys of it. rather than be green with envy, why not be happy for the person?
basically this entry is just some random rumbling with no intention of arrowing anyone.
is it true that guys tend to play lip service or just that girls tend to read more into things? sometimes i cant help but wonder.. is it just me who behaves and thinks this way? ok. i guess it is just my nature to be more sensitive. so.. do be careful with your choice of words when you are communicating with me. i dont like people (both guys and gals) to say things out of convenience only to forget about it later. for example the person say "i'll bring you to xxxx next time" and a few days/weeks later, he/she has clean forgotten the promise! this REALLY gets me. the sense of disappointment. @_# i know it isnt exactly a promise but your word is your bond. i am especially particular when the person means something to me. or perhaps i should give the other party the benefit of the doubt and understand that he/she is really busy. aye.. easier said than done. i cant help it because i am one who expects and thinks too much.. indeed higher the expectation, greater the disappointment.
i just realised i have less than 3 weeks to spend time with my eldest sister. she is going to US for job training soon, meaning i wouldnt see her for another 1 year.. does this mark the growing up process? that we must learn to part with our family? i really have to set more time aside for her while i still can, learn to cherish and treasure the bond we share. i do not want to regret for not having done so when i look back in the future. but.... does it help that since young we have never been educated to display our love and concern outwardly?
beautiful shades of blue and green blended together just like a painting. everything appears to be at a standstill despite the turmoil hidden deep under the sea. isnt it amazing that the sea behaves like Man or is it the other way round? the wonders of nature.
que sera sera... what will be will be
val: 309 dinner should be postponed since darling yee is in redang. as for grad trip, i hope to go to a country i have yet to venture to. probably not tw and hk.
Monday, June 18, 2007
i finally went to ecp on sat. had been a long time since i have been there. so much so that i had forgotten the way there. cant help it considering the fact that i am always losing my way. there are 2 things i would really have like to do but i was unable to since it's raining. anyway, it was a good night and i enjoyed myself. i must have been a suaku. to think it was the first time i am actually seeing the merlion so up-close. usually i only see it from the other side of the river. oops.. please dont say that's my neighbourhood anymore. thanks mr zaizai-lookalike! i am sorry you are sick now. but well.. it's a good thing cos you can rest at home for 2 days to catch up on all the lost sleep. ;P and i am glad that i got to see the serious side of you. lol.
went out with my dad to celebrate father's day yesterday. though i had my fair share of grunts and complaints about him but still, it is undeniable that he had tried his best to take good care of his family. i guess it isnt easy to raise up 5 children. at least i learnt to be sensible and independent. i guess not many people can comprehend the growing-up process i had, considering how complicated it is. well.. not like i am an exhibitionist-one who goes around telling people my life story. ask me and perhaps i will tell you, dont ask me of course i wouldnt tell you. makes sense right? it isnt like everyone are interested to hear about others' lives.
i woke up feeling very bad.. had wanted to send a birthday wish message at 2359 last night but.. apparently i was too tired and fell asleep at 1145. argh.. i even composed the message already. sigh.. to caleb, i am sorry i wasnt able to keep myself awake. had wanted to send when i did wake up at 1 but i guess no point cos it is slightly too late. anyway, hope u had enjoyed your celebration.
i guess i am falling sick too. caught a cold and i am sneezing away like nobody's business. bleahz.. taking half day off since everyone is doing that too. hahaz.
Friday, June 15, 2007
just when i thought i have accomplished my mission i realised 1 building is missing?! try as i might, i cant locate it on the map which is so damn small!! well.. ultimately i still managed to finish my task. no mean feat k? now my eyes are tired and my fingers are sore. @_@
i admit i aint exactly one with very good temper. in particular days when i am feeling grouchy and tired. please stay away from me and stop getting on my nerves. i can be nice and easy-going but... i aint color-blind. i just dont like to communicate with certain groups of people. another type of people who never fail to irritate me is those who are incessantly asking for others' approval. probably deprived or insecure. what is the point of asking another person (not once, not twice but many many times!) for his/her opinion when you are already deeply convicted in your own idea? is it just a way of making yourself feel good? sorry but i really dont know how to make your day. i am a meanie.
looked out the window and it's super duper dark outside. greyish outlook which seems as if i am watching a scene from films of the 50s or rather quoted from the uncle, Genting. i feel sad for the people outside, having to withstand the strong wind and the relentless fall of the rain. i guess sometimes i feel too much or i just have too much sympathy to spare. i hate it when it rains so heavily. somehow it means that disasters and accidents are bound to happen. :( and not forgetting the lightning. argh..
i cant believe i have been at this map for more than 1 hour. 85 buildings from a single development to be updated! i think i probably dont even do that many in a single day. have you ever tried pressing 'enter' for 85 times consecutively? duhz.. how smart can IS be? it keeps prompting you.. cant it just ask once and for all? 1 thing good though is that i only need to change 5 fields for each structure. but.. my eyes are really strained. bleahz.. 27 more to go! i will really be more appreciative the next time i use the street directory. what with all my efforts.
i didnt know reading a book can burn calories. wow~ supposedly if you finish reading da vinci code in 4 hours, you can burn the calories equivalent to 1 chocolate bar (885 kcal!). isnt that amazing? 1 question though, what about looking at maps? ^.*
i finally checked what is the cost of the desaru trip. $208 per person but no more vacancy! boohoo. perhaps i will settle for batam? hahaz
Thursday, June 14, 2007
busy. the most common excuse a person gives to turn another person down. but is it really true? basically, to me 'busy' is an excuse given to people who are not that significant to me. if the other person really means something to you, no matter how busy you are, you will try to make time for him/her. work is not a justified excuse. you cant be busy 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. ultimately, it is just a matter of how much the person means to you which determines how much effort you will put in to manage your time. as long as you are not a bugger, i will definitely try to arrange an alternative timing in order to fit our mismatched schedules.
sometimes i think my mother is the most drama mama ever.. what to do? i think i must have inherited some of her genes.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
considering the fact that i will be working all the way till school starts, how am i going to fit a holiday trip in? so... i am actually quite tempted to go on the Desaru trip organized by 883. 2D1N and it sets off on 21st july. but.. i have yet to check out the cost. lol. hopefully it's not too expensive. anyone interested to join me?
aint exactly in the mood to blog today cos i'm feeling like a pig.. i think i ate too much last night.. one night of bingeing and that's all it takes.. bleah.. means i can sacrifice my lunchie today for my disco nap. for the definition of disco nap, go to www.urbandictionary.com. lol
so what am i doing here? well.. first of all to give credits. okiex. shall spell out your name this time k? to....jianxing, thanks for teaching me something new yesterday. it's been a question i have yet to figure out and lo and behold, i got the answer from you! aha. isnt it a great feeling to be the one who knows something which i do not know for a change? :P i am impressed! (seriously, no joke)
secondly, i wanna boast about my intelligence or rather my psychic power. hahaz. i actually managed to find a place even though i had the faintest idea where it is. amazingly, just when i thought i am lost, there, right in front of me is the place! wow~ i aint that bad with directions afterall. lalalala~
running out of ideas on where to go for a first date? sick of the usual places and looking for good food? no worries~ go to www.ieatishootipost.blogspot.com - a blog recommended by 883.
some guys just cant take hints.. tsk.. getting on my nerves.. #.#
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
are my eyes playing tricks on me or is it really only 12?! oh no... my eyes are perfectly fine! argh.. why does time pass so slowly when i am in the office? sighz. it's raining cats and dogs outside and i am becoming a piece of frozen meat in here.. cold gloomy day.. perfect for sentimental songs that let one wallow in self-pity. aha. not exactly a good idea though. i'd rather say it's an ideal day to slow down our pace and reflect. get whatever that's pulling you down and holding you back out of the way and then move on.
looking out the window, i can barely see the distinction between the sky and the sea. misty view which seems like a scene straight from pirates though the ships on our seas cant be compared to those in the movie. but it sure does remind me of the part when they travelled to the end of the world. ohz.. and did i mention i like that monkey jack? sooooo adorable! oops.. someone's going to say i think too much again.. lol
oh yes val, happie birthday to ur mummy too! i wish her forever young and pretty!
it's only the second day of the week and i had to drag myself out of bed to come to work.. yawnz. i am suffering from lack of sleep.. my biological clock has yet gotten used to waking up so early.. then realized i left my pass in the office and was locked out till someone rescued me 10 minutes later. the inconvenience of technology. tsk..
arts pre-camp has started. for once i feel quite detached from it. perhaps i am getting old. guess i'll drop by on them one of the days when camp officially starts. i miss all the fun! but i guess the most enjoyable is when you are in it with your friends. thank god i joined when i was a freshman. ~.~
309 peeps, class gathering is tentatively set this sat morn/noon. either bird park or gaming. so far zx,shanz,oli have no objection. siwei cant make it cos he's working. please help me spread the word though i guess it will be the usual gang. hahaz
oh yes. happy birthday to kynneth and also my mummy! thanks for being a mister nice guy, freshie's freshie! singapore is indeed small. ahaha. anyway have a blessed year ahead with God's heavens open over you. next to my mummy, thanks for being the most open-minded mother! though you can be a nag at times, i know it's because you care. *hugz* wish you good health and joy.
ps: val, is it your mum's bday too? i seem to remember it is..
Monday, June 11, 2007
sometimes even i myself am amazed at how discerning i can be. as in somehow my intuition can be so spot-on that it scares me too. perhaps i am gifted in this area - the ability of being able to know what others are feeling even though they are not voicing it out. however, i guess it's true when they say outsiders see a clearer picture cos my premonition is usually uncannily astute with regards to issues pertaining to other people. i guess i can become a counsellor or a social worker? ^.^
i'm having the blues.. work is getting so mundane.. perhaps i need some entertainment. alright. shall list down the places i wanna go and things i wanna do this holiday.
1. zoo (but i heard some not very good feedback... so i am still contemplating)
2. birdpark (the last time i went there was in pri sch..)
3. haw par villa (heard it's quite run down too also?)
4. labrador park (nice sunset over there)
5. fort canning park (I've never been there before though it's so near my house!)
6. velocity (want to check out the stores over there)
7. square 2 (heard there's some stores selling korean style clothings)
8. central (been there once or twice but yet to fully check out the stores)
9. east coast park (i havent cycled for a long long time and i miss the sea breeze...)
10. ice-skating (i want to slip and fall on the ice. haha)
11. cruise (either that or a short holiday to neighbouring islands)
12. karaoke (partyworld or kbox is fine with me)
so many things i wanna do!! if any of you is on for any of them, let me know k?
ps: calling all 309 ppl, shall we have a class gathering this month? let me know the preferred dates k?
to you whose faith is wavering i have only one advice for you. not that i am well-qualified to be preaching to others but just what i feel with regard to the issue. you can choose to ignore the following paragraph if you feel it is too spiritual for you.
personally i believe that it is best to go back to that very first time when you had an encounter with Him. what was it that led you to trust in Him at that time? perhaps more often than not, people accept Christ (or basically any religion) when they are in the pit of their lives, when nobody seems to care about you and the only one who does is you yourself. and as time goes by, wounds start to heal as you grow stronger and you may feel that you are becoming less reliant on Him. you may then start to question yourself and wonder if your decision then was justifiable. but somehow i believe that the crux of the problem is what you felt when you first let Him into your life and what changes you have undergone since. I hope it wasnt a decision just for convenience or any other superficial reasons. anyway i guess religion is abstract and intangible. you cant measure it and there isnt one single standard everyone have to conform to as each of us perceive things differently and have different backgrounds. ultimately each individual has a different Christian walk. the key is to just let your heart take rein and ignore the scorns of the disbeliever. more often than not religion is just like love. it is irrational and cannot be substantiated. the more you try to rationalize it, the more doubts and emotional struggles you develop. so i guess you just have to trust your heart and keep on keeping on. cos ultimately you are the one who understands yourself best.
alright. that's basically all what i want to say. and this entry will be specially dedicated to you. wouldnt mention names here. =P
Sunday, June 10, 2007
it's been ages since i stayed out late. went to mind's cafe to play board games. i guess this trend is fast replacing going to the movies and it is a healthier option than drinking. anyway the price is comparable paid 15 for playing from 11 till 3 and a drink and snack is included. quite a good deal! played this game, Quelf. woohoo~ very fun. highly recommended by me! quite stoned after the whole session and i rested my head against the back of the chair. then felt this tap on my shoulder and a concerned voice asking if i am alright. turned my head and realize it's 1 of the staff. managed a smile. did i look drunk or wasted? plus point is he is quite cute so i am honored to get his attention. lol. but anyway after that we continued to play bridge at the mac at my house downstairs. all the way to 9. i guess i get high when i dont sleep, talking to myelf etc.. still went to work straight after. i really felt like i was floating around. it isnt helping that there was an event held at the cafe.. yawnz...
Friday, June 08, 2007
the sky is turning dark and the sea has changed from blue to green.. no more fluffy cotton candy.. boohoo.. how unpredictable can the weather be... thunderstorm alert
coming from the mouth of a man, i am beginning to believe that a guy will never do things without a reason especially in the game of love. a guy will only go out of his ways to impress the girl he likes or rather a guy will only be attentive to the girl he is interested in. unless he is really a person full of love for people if not it is actually quite rare to find a person who is nice to all, boys and girls alike. anyway to prevent any misunderstanding, i always choose to believe that a guy is purely being nice rather than have an ulterior motive. imagine the guy is merely caring for you as a friend and you read too much into it. tsk..
as usual, it's 9 but no one's in the office except me. it's alright though. i prefer the privacy i have. looking out the window enjoying my chou. indeed it is a beautiful day out there. fluffy white clouds in the sky and the vast blue sea which expands infinitely out to the horizon. aint i glad i have such a strategic workstation. whenever i am tired i can just look out the window and i can watch the ships crusing along. i am beginning to like nature more and more. speaking of which, when are we going to the zoo? i'd prefer the bird park though.
it's amazing what determination can achieve. i guess it is true that when you have the will, you will have a way?
i am tempted to join arts camp but well.. perhaps i shall not be a science traitor for once? lol. i need to work and start saving up for more important stuff like my graduation trip. to all those who are graduating with me, shall we go to japan or korea?
Thursday, June 07, 2007
hey val, i think i am going to be as free as you soon. lol. though it isnt exactly that there isnt anything for me to do (there's 3.5 boxes of maps waiting for me still) but being the highly efficient girl that i am, i need to slow down. i still have 2 months to go and in just 1.5 weeks i have cleared 1 box. oops.. am i too fast or what? to think i am always dozing off in the office yet i can accomplish so much. haha. self-praise is no praise. oh. speaking of which. i need to thank a person.
JX: thanks for keeping me company in office else i'll really be bored stiff. really appreciate you doing silly things with me like chatting via friendster cos i dont and cant have msn installed.. boohoo.. thinking back, i feel stupid to come up with such ideas. ahaha. :P but i still dont think sms is a good idea. we are probably going to hit the roof when the bill comes. guess the best solution is for me to be more self-reliant. perhaps listening to 883 whole day isnt that horrid afterall. apart from the songs that are so yester-years. i prefer class 95!
i guess it's the time of the year when break-ups are rampant. such is the vulnerability of relationships. sigh.. all promises which are only meant to be broken. disheartening..
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
cant believe my friend has become a 'carrothead'! whatever happened to the thrifty guy i used to know? perhaps such is the power of love. but i absolutely look in distaste girls who sweet-talk their boyfriends to buy things for them. well.. dont you have your own money? not that i dont advocate men footing the bill. it is justifiable for men to pay when out on a date, movies, dinner etc.. but not for your shopping. perhaps 1 or 2 small items occasionally but not always, what's more branded stuff. no wonder some guys are always telling me how materialistic girls are.
Monday, June 04, 2007
someone asked me: have you ever wondered why you are such a weird person?
am i weird? probably. i do admit i am more particular than other people. the water i drink and the habits i have. but well, doesnt mean when you conform to the general public, you are normal.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
have you ever had the chance of seeing a guy propose to a girl in public? I was privilleged enough to witness the showcase of love between a couple and the guy wasnt any ordinary person but... 刘耕宏. not sure if everyone knows who he is. he had a role in 贫穷贵公子. i had just saw him 2 weeks ago in taiwan when i went to his church, New Life. over there, he sang 2 songs from his newly-launched album-迦南美地 and 彩虹天堂. nice songs all completely composed by him. amazing. now, he is in Singapore and came to CHC because of Emerge. many talents he have and a great basketballer too. furthermore, he actually has a very good build which was over-exaggerated on screen. alright. i guess you guys must be thinking something. yes! i do like him alot. as in not crazily in love with him but pure admiration. just the type of guy i like - soft-spoken, caring, sporty,daring to fight for what he wants and not being shy in displaying his feelings. i just dislike guys who keep to themselves. anyway back to the proposal. he has been with his girlfriend, vivi for 7 years and now they are tying the knot! woo~ envious. greatly impressed by his courage to express his love in front of 3000 people (strangers in fact). it must be true love then. so sweet. if i am the girl, i will probably be on cloud nine. *.* dont be mistaken though. i mean if my future boyfriend does that to me too.
agape.
unconditional love.
Friday, June 01, 2007
i'm beginning to appreciate the place where i stay. i used to complain about staying in the cbd zone because no one stays near me and i have to go home on my own. but now i am thankful that i stay in the heart of Singapore city. at least i can go late night shopping and not worry about transport. isnt it funny that u save on your shopping only to spend it on cab fare? ok ok. i am gonna get bashed soon if i continue to be yaya. oops.. anyway gals, please let me know if you wanna go shopping k?
fyi, the piece of land i can see out my office window is sentosa. apparently sentosa has quite some up and coming housing too. and i just realized there are so many islands in singapore. 64 in total. woah! did you know that? and i am actually becoming quite good with maps. who says that girls are bad with maps? stereotype.
