Complexity meets simplicity..
attended a play for the first time at National Museum of Singapore. it was really a great production and hui was so pretty! u go ger! aint i glad we managed to go in the end. i really enjoyed watching the performance and the place is really cool. unlike in the past when it looked so dark and creepy. the revamp gave the place a total make-over and i love the swinging lights hanging from the ceiling. next on my mind is to watch Phantom of the Opera. but no one wanna go with me.. sad.. qi said she watched it before and it wasnt that good. but it has always been my desire to watch this play.. so.. if anyone intend to go, let me know ok? let me tag along please..
as we were walking to the train station after the play, we saw 4 Chevrolet Corvette Z06 LZ1 parked outside in a row! wow~ the car is so stylish and futuristic-looking. but.. sadly we could only admire it from far.. lye even jokingly said to take a photo with 1 of it but the owners were there.. there goes our chance. and it brought us to the topic of Singaporean girls being materialistic. perhaps it really is true. the more educated you are, the more practical you are?
it isnt so difficult afterall. perhaps that is what true friendship mean. u will forgive each other of their transgression. initially it was awkward and seemed daunting but it worked out ultimately. although i had to be the first to initiate the reconcilliation but well.. at least we salvaged our friendship. it isnt worth it to fall out over a minor mis-understanding :p
i am beginning to feel skeptical about your confession. a niggling feeling tells me things are not as simple as they seem. why dont i see or even feel any effort that you are making to work things out again? alright. blame it on my over-sensitivity. just a few unintentional nice words and my imagination goes into over drive, thinking that you really mean it.. or perhaps now is not the time to talk about matters of the heart. it had already lapsed for so long, doesnt matter to wait somemore right?
pop goes my heart!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
i cant believe that it is already week 10. i really need to get myself into studying if not i can really say goodbye to passing with merit. sigh.. been skipping far too many lessons for my own good.. no surprise my tests were really horrible. not forgetting the tons of webcast i need to watch.. argh! judging from the situation now, i really need to cut down on my tuition and work. i need a mugging partner. God, are u going to send me one? anyway i was complaining to ali.. i seem to get stupider as i get older.. are all my brain cells dying? not like i was very smart but at least smarter than now? haiz.. i guess i have no choice but to work harder now?
on a lighter note, i finally got my passport! the new biometric one. yeah~ i can now go to malaysia liao.. but most importantly i cant wait to go taiwan after exams. :P at least that's something to look forward to. oh yes. i just realised something today. i havent been to 'touristy' places for some time. places like mt faber, sentosa and zoo. i resolve to go there one of these days(after exams though). 1 place i would really like to go is labrador park cos u can admire beautiful sunset over there. the catch is that it's a highly inaccessible place. =(
i was surprised by lw. he actually kept the birthday present he bought for me 3 years ago. will anyone even bother to keep a present for more than 1 year i wonder. shall meet up with him soon if not my present will just collect dust for more years to come. aint i glad to have a friend in him. oh yeah. it's his day today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! stay healthy and true. not forgetting my dear. i see that she is doing well in australia. but still.. birthdays cant possibly be any happier
without me right? God bless you! stay bubbly and cheerful.
i like to be sweet-talked to but i also like to see actions. so.. please show me something tangible ok? words are pure bullshit if there is nothing to back it up. a word of sorry is meaningless when ur actions are nought. especially true when there is a crack in the relationship but guys often fail to see that. or rather, they chose to ignore and assume everything is alright. probably they are just not sensitive or thoughtful enough. or they just dont understand women. we all have a soft spot and as long as ur actions show ur sincerity, we will let bygones be bygones. let me reiterate once again. unless something is done to untie the mess, the knot will always be there.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
i hate myself for feeling this way.. trapped in the past.. and it aint helping that u chose to stir some emotions only to turn aloof once again.. can u kindly tell me what do u mean by that? please spare me the agony. i am sick and tired of being a substitute good. i do believe i deserve someone who truly treasures me, though the time aint right yet.
sometimes i think i am just too trusting. so much so i become gullible (i'd prefer to be called naive though) anyway i guess i should stop living in my own world. no one is perfect and u cant take what one says at face value..
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i guess it may sound unbelievable but.. today was the first time i watched a movie with my sister. you may be amazed. all 21 years of my life and yet i have never gone to the movies with my family. haha. i guess it just aint my culture? anyway we watched music and lyrics, starring hugh grant and drew barrymore. well.. maybe the rest dont find it fantastic but it is one of the best i have seen in a long long time. perhaps i am just a sucker for romance comedy plus retro songs? i am totally awed by Hugh Grant's voice. his voice is very mellow, just the way i like. :p my favourites are P0p! Goes my heart and Dance with Me tonight. Not forgetting the movie soundtrack Way back into Love. of course there's this part when Alex (Hugh) sang Dont Write Me Off, which totally moved my heart. how sweet~ anyway those who have not watched it, do go k? it's hilarious and highly entertaining. i give it 4 popcorns!
Sunday, March 11, 2007
celebrated wei's 21st birthday at her house. her guest list comprised of about 15 girls and 2 guys. male-female ratio abit biased i guess? anyway her parents are really fun people and we had so much fun and laughter. great being able to catch up with the rest cos i havent got the chance to ever since school started.. wei.. i hope u will like ur presents! n dont forget it's chosen by me! :p not forgetting some well wishes. have a fabulous year ahead and stay pretty ya?
i dont understand how some people think.. or rather what they are thinking of.. wasnt things fine the way they were.. alright. perhaps just like xiang said, i am in the back-up memory. well.. i cant expect much anyway. aye.. everyone just takes me as a substitute aka sparetyre. someone who is there to fill the gap when it is empty. sigh. well.. at least show me some sincerity.. i have no idea what you really want.. can we really return to where we left off and start anew? is it really possible for me to pretend nothing happened and move on? are you really sure you have sorted out your thinking totally? maybe you are still confused? can you assure me that it will never hapen again? (although i had no idea what really happened then) can i put my heart into trusting you again? should i not be wary that you will just disappear into thin air if things dont turn out the way you wanted it? questions, questions, questions but no answers.. probably if you can find the answer, things will be clearer.
You are Not ALone.. Michael Jackson
Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone
All alone, oh why
Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin
Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there
You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone...
another song by the King of Pop that i really like. somehow i think that all his songs are very meaningful despite what some may think of his character. but personally i believe in him. a man who can sing songs with so much depth cant be that bad right?
Saturday, March 03, 2007
i can barely find my way back here. mmx.. been real busy the past few weeks. tuition after tuition.. work after work.. aye aye.. this sem is gonna be a big Disaster. well.. am i ever going to graduate with a merit? sighz..
anyway let's talk about happie stuff. had a great reunion dinner with the people at SPELL. seems like i am getting accepted there cos i am going to change from a not so nice desktop to a laptop. hoorayz~ though i havent been going to the office for weeks they didnt fire me. thank God. after that went to caddie's 21st bday chalet. felt abit out though cos i aint that close to the rest of the girls now. well.. at least there's still the guys to count on. some not all though. mmx.. and i have a feeling that there is a rumour about me n js going on.. mmx.. well well.. he aint my type of guy. though he is tall but i prefer guys who are gentlemanly and caring. as to whether he fits that bill.. mm-mm.. alright. since now i am on this topic shall list down the criteria i look for in my other half( ranked according to importance):
1. puts me top priority over every other thing
2. gentlemanly (not MCP)
3. thoughtful
4. family-oriented (as in cares for his family not obsessed with them like a mummy's boy)
5. witty and fun (jokes not at my expense though especially when i am pissed)
that's all. haha. not that much right? but why is it so hard to find? if anyone of u know of such a great guy, introduce to me k? then i wouldnt have to attend my company dinner all by myself while the rest all came in pairs.. :[ ohz.. one more thing. he must be a sensitive new age man (SNAG) which means he must have a good dress sense! sidetrack, i think it is just a thin line between a SNAG and a gay. hahaz. i like guys who are metrosexual but not to that extent. hee..
