Complexity meets simplicity..
exactly a week since i last blogged but it feels like centuries have lapsed.. anyway i guess next time i can only blog when i'm in the office cos my sis laptop doesnt allow me to blog. boo.. so next time i shall update once a week. not like there's anything much to update anyway. now that i'm only left with 1 tuition n telemarketing job.
something's been bugging me for sometime but didnt get the chance to get it off my chest. if i keep it within me anymore, i think i'm going to explode. alright. u say u dont know what is going on between us anymore. seriously i dont too. sometimes i cant help but wonder perhaps there wasnt anything in the first place. ok. n so what we are now is all bcos of me being ambiguous. how do i answer an issue that had never been formally brought up? anyway let's not go into that. i guess u expect me to take the initiative? let's try to recall, though my memory may be failing me, when was the last time u take the first move to sms, msn or even call me? it seems like we had swopped roles as time goes by. and it gets pretty tiring when only one party is making the effort. did i not try to ask u out but u cant make it and then i asked other ppl out. is that wrong? perhaps i shouldnt even have bothered to ask u first or am i supposed to stay home because u haven no time for me? why am i the one who's trying so hard to make time for u but u dont seem to appreciate? ok. i know all of these are only from my point of view which u might not agree with. but this is my blog anyway. i'm entitled to think and write what i want. i know i'm sounding childish and accusing but that's how i am. i guess u are going to get upset reading this but well.. since u said i'm always ambivalent, i shall not be now ok? not like it matters anymore. perhaps i shouldnt say this too. but it's my typical response correct? in my opinion, it wasnt even an issue of trust but one of sincerity and whether u know what u want. my presence now wasnt of as much significance as u thought then. perhaps like i said, u were confused. most probably u've been enlightened and know who or what u want now, which is a good thing.
woke up with a giddy spell n the world seems to be spinning around me. am i falling sick again? yes. as they say, scientists dont live long cos of the chemicals they are in constant contact with. so dont be surprised if i die young. n most probably i'll die fat too(courtesy of my brother in law n sister who brought me fine-dining at Prego and Sheraton Towers)
a song stuck in my head. n it is one which i wanna play at my wedding (that is if i'm going to get married).
If We Hold On Together
by Diana Ross
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold on to the truth
In your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on till the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let them come
Home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I
When we are out there
In the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark
We'll feel the light
Warm our hearts
Everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I
