Complexity meets simplicity..
this is the ultimate. i guess i must be the suayest person alive. or some ppl will say, it's not suay but that i'm just plain careless n blur. but well, in a way i'd say i'm really down on my luck. i mean if i'm lucky the person who picked up my stuff will return it to me? but never!! so much for being nice n honest. i picked up an ipod the other day n i turned it in ok?! anyway, as most of u have already known, i've lost my laptop! as xiang said, the things i lose seem to increase in value each time. what can i say? i think someone has cast a voodoo or set a curse on me. not a year can pass by without me losing anything since as long as i can remember. this yr is the worst! i lost my hp n laptop. i'm so screwed..
anyway i wanna thank all those who've helped me in one way or another to cope with my loss n advising me what to do. Harris, for giving me a lift to the police station although he had something else to do. Xiang, for helping me with the loss report in school. The com center guy( i dont know what's his name) who was so helpful n optimistic. Desmond, Brian, Joyce, Yun n Ni. thanks!! but one person i'd like to complain about is the stupid man i reported the case to. said since it's lost he can only wait for it to be found. idiot! y must he be so rigid n discriminate between a loss n a theft? sucky attitude he gave me lo. hate those ppl in blue (actually just that particular snob cos the rest were quite understanding n helpful)
i always wonder how is it that some ppl can call another person dear or darling or any other affectionate term so easily (like it's natural)? though i had no idea how did my dears n darlings came about so quickly but i guess it was bcos we clicked so well? anyway that was mutual recognition so it's different. anyway what i'm really curious is if u term someone so affectionately, means u care alot for him/her n wanna spend as much time as u can with him/her right? at least that's what i think la. or perhaps my expectations r way too high. like my sister said, i am childish n unreasonable. cos i said i will not get emotionally attached with someone who always doesnt have time for me. then my sis said it's difficult for a person to be always there, no matter how much he/she cares for u. ok. i dont expect 100% but at least 85%. is it too much to ask for?
anyway it doesnt matter now. i'm just going to learn to be independent n not rely on others. cos at the end of it all, the only one who's going to stand beside me always will only be myself.
i dont live for u
