Complexity meets simplicity..
Announcement! exactly 4 months - 2 days to my 21st birthday. can start planning how i wanna celebrate? that's me - ms kiasu. haha. chalet? abit troubesome unless someone else helps me to organise. anyway, i was telling Brian to start saving up - a dollar a day then when the day arrives, he can get me a big big present! hee. ahem. i guess the rest of u got the hint too? lol. just joking k. big or small, it's the thought that counts.
there's this weird guy. said he wanna date me. craziness! he's just broken off with his gf then he's on the rebound. anyway he was saying if he werent together with the girl, we would have been an item. 'IF'. in my opinion, he would not have been with the girl if he didnt like her more then. so what's the point of saying all this now? crap! anyway what makes him so sure i like him? duhx..
do i look like a liar? some ppl asked me if i highlighted my hair again. my answer was no. but they gave me the look of disbelief n asked again n again. like why would i wanna bluff them.. well.. for the benefit of those who didnt know, the blue colour i dyed has faded off to show the blond hair beneath. how is that so? first, to get blue hair, i must first bleach my hair. this is a technique to get ash hair colours which include red, green and blue. but these colours usually have a short lifetime cos they decolourised after a few wash. chemistry behind it is bleaching is a much stronger agent than the normal dye. understood? alright. i know i'm sounding cynical. shall not dwell on the topic anymore. :x
i think i have tried too hard.. doing things that i think are in his interest but i suppose he thinks otherwise. i guess i still dont know what he is thinking but i can feel his change in attitude towards me.. perhaps i have been too naive to think that some things will never change? apparently nothing is eternal. no guy can forever be nice to a girl right? aye.. shouldnt have bothered to be sensitive to others. shall just leave things as they are. it is time to wake up. i had been living in an illusion for the longest time.
i dislike the insecurity that relationships promise..
