Complexity meets simplicity..
Happy Birthday Singapore!! n to all my fellowmen! 41 years of stability and prosperity is no easy feat n is testimonial to our leadership. alright. i sound abit too diplomatic. haha. but well.. i do appreciate our leaders n am thankful that i stay here. cos it's a pretty safe place (at least that's what i think though wei say i'm living in my own safe world, unaware of the dangers lurking everywhere) anyway i went to watch the fireworks display. hmm.. it didnt seem that fantastic as the previous one. no purple ones. in fact the colours n designs are too plain. aye.. plus the crowd n the obstructed view didnt really make it an exhilerating experience for me. maybe staying at home would be a wiser choice? no crowd to push me around n the view is perfectly clear. haha.
is it a good thing that i feel pangs of jealousy sometimes? seeing u being nice to ppl other than me? waiting for ur sms replies that my hp is always in my hands, ever-ready to reply? perhaps i'm starting to fall.. deeper in love with u.. but.. i'll try not to. bcos i'll expect more if we ever get together. it is different from now when i can still tolerate u not being 24/7 cos we r still friends. yes. i'm a selfish lover. i want to be loved but i'm not ready for committment. i want to be top priority but i wont place u at the top of my list.. that's how i am. n that's why i prefer to remain this way till i learn to give more than to receive. or perhaps till i find someone who accept me the way i am.
