Complexity meets simplicity..
i tink i look older than my age? sigh.. an auntie hu lived in my blk asked mi if i'm working now?! so i said no. i'm still studying. then she asked if i'm in jc? excuse mi? i'm wearing home clothes lehx.. duhx.. dunno wat she's tinking.. spoilt my dae.. cos i hate to be regarded as mature. argh!!
going back to mj tml to promote nus sci. hoho. sounds easy n i get to earn 8 bucks an hr. yeah~ i'm totally broke now lor.. so watever opportunity i can find to earn some quick bucks i'd gladly take it up. money-grabber? perhaps.
Friday, February 24, 2006
Sweet promises or Deceiving lies?
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty,
He said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....
And he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again he replied with a no.
She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...
A good friend will not come bail you out of jail....
But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying ....
WE screwed up!
Some things i've learnt
That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.
That money doesn't buy class.
That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
That the less time I have to work, the more things I get done.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
been hearing this song so frequently on class 95 dat the lyrics juz stuck to mi. a song by james blunt 'Goodbye My Lover'. nice nice~ juz wanna share wid u all.. if u r not interested, then i guess it's too bad. cos the rest of this entry will be its lyrcis. hoho.
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
Monday, February 20, 2006
sent my da jie off yest. i guess it juz doesnt feel the same as b4.. cos in the past, her trips were all short. but now i wun see her for 1 yr. though initiali i had tot i'd be happie she's gone cos she's so noisy n naggy.. buden when i see her leave i felt weird perhaps a sense of loss? well.. i guess i'm kind of worried too. cos it's so scary to go to a foreign land all alone.. n she's such a blur sotong lor.. sigh.. hope through this experience she'll grow wiser ba.
anywae hols start le.. though it's onli till thurs. but well.. it's better than nuthin. perhaps i can use this time to chiong my webcasts. haha
Friday, February 17, 2006
suddenli i feel dat i'm very old le.. met bobby when i went to arts this afternoon. n as usual he was telling his frens he knew mi since i was sec 1. n i'll usuali brush it off. but come to tink of it.. it means we've known each other for 7 yrs? woah! time reali speeds! asked mi to join foodhunt n it does sound very fun. wanted to join but the rest r all not free tml.. sigh.. i wanna find ppl to play also dun haf..
chatted wid him for quite long cos i see steven at the other booth. n i was hoping he'd walk pass. haha. but he din seem to walk over n so i doubt he saw mi.. *sobz* i got to see all the rest lyk ivan, hock n soozey but juz not the one i wanna be seen by.. argh.. juz not meant to be..
met up wid dear after sch todae. went to bugis village cos she wanna get mi a bag as birthdae present. exactly 1 month since my bdae. hoho. but better late than never la. din managed to find one dat's reali nice cos the designs now r all quite plain.. but in the end still settled for one shoulder bag wid no designs.. i had wanted to find one wid graffiti prints but cant find.. tried to haggle wid the ger but she refused to budge.. yucks. should haf bought from a guy la.. anywae after dat went bugis junction to shop around. basically sounding her out for her 21st bdae. n i've decided to buy a swatch watch for her. shall start saving up now. had a good time wid dear cos i haven met her since b4 xmas.. n we could finali exchange our xmas present! received a heart-shaped pendant from her n a blue rose as v-dae present. thanks dear! but dun sae u wanna gif mi away to other guys la..
received a call from kelvin yest.. surprise surprise! he's the one i noe while working at dos. took mi quite a while to recall. haha. i guess he's broken up wid tingting? if not y suddenli call mi ehx? i juz hate this kind of thing.. my name onli resurface in guys mind when they've broken off.. y is this so?
plz dun sms mi at whim. i haf alreadi taken it dat i'm not anybody important when u can forget mi on my bdae n v-dae. plz dun disrupt my life now by sending a sms once a month. it doesnt make sense n it's not going to change anything. i noe i sound harsh but i'm juz protecting myself.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
hope everyone had a great valentine! for mi, it's quite a dae well spent. went to sch as usual though there's nuthin much to look forward to. though there's bazaar n stalls selling flowers n stuff.. there seems to be something misssing. i guess uni doesnt reali create the atmosphere cos it's juz too big n everyone is juz too far apart.. sigh.. cant even meet up wid the gers..
met up wid kelvin after sch. went to suntec for lunch at gelare. though not exactly lunch ba.. juz wanted to find a place to sit n rest my feet. haha. observe the ppl walking by n pass some comments. lol. rested enough we went to some toy shop then to the arcade. oh.. there's 1 very interesting game now. cant reali rem the name but there's super mario. i guess it's a newer racing game. finali not juz mundane men racing against each other. definitely a more interesting n cuter game. hoho. after dat walked around sumore b4 decidng on where to go for dinner. settled for a jap restaurant at the basement after walking for a few rounds cos i'm juz too fussy. haha. n luckily we were early cos mid-way we saw there's a long queue waiting outside. after dinner he decided to go kbox. n so it's time for mi to 'kill chicken' n break glass again. haha. sang for 3 hrs n it's time to go off le.. though i haven reali sang my heart out.. but i'm still happie cos i haven gone karaoke for ages le.. thanks for bearing wid my out of tune singing. haha. n also for the present. din expect to receive one cos the dae b4 received a bouquet of champagne roses. delivered to my door step. lolx. it's the 1st time ever i felt so pampered. though i did receive flowers b4 but not exactly a bouquet.. n even if it's a bouquet, it's plastic flowers. haha. n so thanks a million for making my dae! :p
Friday, February 10, 2006
darn.. i'm stuck in my room n the onli companion i haf is my lap top.. my sis cg is outside n i dun wanna join them.. actuali wanted to go out wid kelvin but in the end din cos my da jie sae i muz accompany her.. onli to be flown butterfly in the end.. watever la.. i'm so pissed la..
n it's not helping dat i've juz been exploited.. went for my 1st tuition session at orchard juz now.. teaching a pri 3 boi from china eng.. initiali i'd sae i'm charging 17 an hr. after the session the mother told mi she tot it's 7?! excuse mi? dat's lyk severely underpaid lor.. n so i told her i cant reali take it la.. so i worked for free juz now.. argh!! so unlucky lorx.. to tink my frens keep saying foreign ppl's money r easy bucks.. duhx..
todae's lab was quite a disaster.. i tink i'm not cut out to be a chemist..
valentine's dae seem to be quite a hoo-haa in uni. song dedications, booths set up lyk a pasar malam.. well.. dun reali suit mi cos i've no need to buy pressie for a special someone. haha. but stil.. managed to buy some stuff for myself.. since no one buying for mi mahx. haix.. but well.. it's ok la. need to be more self-sufficient. :P
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say. "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
i tot this is a rather meaningful poem so wanna share wid those reading my blog. maybe we can all learn something from it. ^.*
Saturday, February 04, 2006
i'm so bored at home.. wonder how long then i'll recover.. maybe i should haf juz gone to see the doctor. but i dun lyk swallowing pills.. n it seems lyk chinese medicine doesnt work for mi.. so now i'm stuck at home luckily there's still the tv n internet to entertain mi. i guess this is the time when one realises the goodness of media? hoho.
was reading thru my friendster testimonials then decided to start writing some too.. suddenli i miss those times i had in sec sch n jc.. n i realised dat uni is juz not the same.. in sec sch n jc, everyone is still quite open to making new frens.. but when u reach uni.. ppl rather stay in their own cliques n onli socialise wid those they noe.. n sch life is juz not the same anymore.. sigh.. everyone is juz bz wid their own stuff.. i guess it's true when they sae the best frens u'll ever meet n make is when u r in sec sch. bcos dat's the time when we develop our character n mentality which inevitably mould our future. n i'm reali thankful for all those frens i've made then.. n also those from Dos. without them, life will not be the same. thanks gers! u made my uni life happen. :P
Friday, February 03, 2006
went to watch fun with dick n jane wid kelvin juz now. very hilarious story but not exactly worth the money.. maybe bcos i'm also not physically well to appreciate the story. but at least i'm better than yest le.. wanted to check out the onyx pendant dat dear lyk.. but i cant seem to find it.. well.. i guess i'll juz hafta settle for swatch watch.. anywae thanks for accompanying mi to look for the present.. but dun sae i look older than my age lehx.. so hurting.. this is the first time i heard ppl sae dat lorx..
Thursday, February 02, 2006
went to a sinseh juz now.. i feel lyk an old granny now.. walk a little bit then i'm panting liaox.. n i tot i've fully recovered from asthma le.. sigh.. so now i'm suffering from a relapse..
last nite was a torture.. could barely sleep as i had to focus on synchronising my breathing.. managed to dig out an inhalent n somehow it tasted abit different? but well at least it managed to curb my irregular breathing.. at least for an hour. woke up at about 3 feeling a pain in the eyes. n horrors of horror my eyes r lyk goldfish's.. n so i cant go to sch le.. but i haf a lab report due tml.. sigh.. dun feel lyk doing but i've no choice.. it'll affect my grades.. i guess by hook or by crook i juz hafta squeeze something out..
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
i guess it's time. time for mi to fall sick again.. been down wid flu, sorethroat n fever since the 2nd dae of new yr.. perhaps due to too much binge-ing n lack of water.. so it means i cant go out.. boo hoo.. anywae it's not lyk i still haf any more visiting cos all done within 1 dae. but i wanna go river angpow! though i've been there many times since i'm born. haha.
cant go for my grandma's reunion dinner at sakura tonite.. cos i dun tink i can eat anything there.. but i miss buffet.. going to be left alone at home since everyone is going.. sigh.. so sad.. nuthin to eat at home also.. all those new yr goodies can onli be seen but not touched.. argh.. i hope i'll get well soon.. if not i'm going to miss out on my grandma's birthdae celebration..
