Complexity meets simplicity..
2nd dae into my work wid the DOS. so far the training has been quite boring.. hmmx.. tink the whole survey is actuali kind of bo liao also.. anywae, will be different shift from val n joyce.. then my group got this auntie hu tinks she's veri smart.. sianx.. hate working wid aunties.. though i noe i'll be an auntie in 30 yrs time.. but well.. i dun tink i'll be dat bad..
hmmx.. dun reali noe wat to blog le.. guess dat's about all then..
Monday, March 28, 2005
juz 20 mins into my nite shift. n my 1st call was from a pervert!! yucks man. i tink there's something wrong wid my line.. seems lyk so far i'm the only one who gets those lewd calls..
a malay senior transferred the call to mi cos he said he dun understand eng.. n so i took the call.. who noes he ask mi weird questions.. how old am i .. am i a student.. do i haf long hair.. whether i swim.. wat has whether i swim got to do wid my job? then ask whether he can whisper to mi.. the last 1 was the ultimate le.. lecher!! wanted to put him on hold then he cut off the line le.. perverse psychotic guy!! now dat i tink of it i feel real disgusted... argh!! curse this man.. tink i those chat line is it? if reali dat desperate go n call those le..
back from my long weekend wid good news. the agency finali smsed mi n confirmed wid val n mi dat we r selected. lalala~ so training will start on wed. n i guess i'll be quite busy from now onwards. wid work from 830 to 315 at the singtel n 7 to 11 at ocbc..
went for my cousin's 21st birthdae party on sat. there was bbq cum catering. 21 alwaes seems to be so grand. muz haf an elaborate celebration. so fast she's 21.. n the next in our family will be mi.. was telling my sister i wanna haf a chalet or bbq for my 21st bdae. then she sae i vv boliao.. cos by then all of them will be too busy to bother about mi.. so sad..
btw my da jie got back from HK le.. din bring mi along.. so mean.. i also wanna go overseas.. but at least she bought 3 pairs of shoes for mi.. :P n she was saying it'll be my paradise over there. bcos the ppl there all vv hip. hmmx.. make mi feel lyk going there too. buden i haven saved up money lehx.. argh.. then my 3rd sis going there this weekend wid her bf.. also not bringing mi.. dun tink i'll haf a chance of going overseas liaox.. sigh.. wid my work starting soon n it ending in end july only.. when then will i be able to go overseas? :( i'm so envious of all those going overseas.. esp sr. she should be enjoying herself in taiwan now living the life she like.. if i can afford it i also wanna do wat i reali wanna do.. but well.. reality forbids.. since young i've known dat i can only depend on myself.. there's no free lunch in this world which means i muz work in order to fend for myself. so now.. i can onli work hard to satisfy my immediate basic needs like hp bill, uni fees n my daily expenditure.. holiday? it can onli wait. guess that makes mi a practical n almost mercenary person?
Thursday, March 24, 2005
last dae at work for the week. long weekend ahead. can go shopping todae. in fact meeting ts at orchard later. it's been centuries since i last went there..
i'm veri happie todae. actuali since last nite. though i noe he may be juz patronising mi.. but i'm still glad he replied my sms. :p used to his flippant words though i prefer to irritate him n derive pleasure from him calling mi silly n stupid. tink i'm insane arx? lolx. maybe it'll make mi feel more special cos i doubt he'll call every other ger moron. haha. anywae dun tink i'll see him again. unless he still rem his promise to mi?
still waiting for the call from pserv.. reali hope i'll get the job.. if not i'm reali becoming a pig le.. eat n sleep. eat n sleep. my waistline is expanding.. argh!!
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
ppl nowadays r getting more n more ill-mannered though they r more educated.. been receiving some irritating calls since morning. speak to them i almost puke blood.
yest even more ridiculous. this 25 yr old guy has applied for a card wid us. asked mi the status then started toking crap wid mi.. asked mi wat's my hp no.. told him i wun gif him my no. then he asked for my direct line.. initiali declined.. but in the end gave him since he'll need to call mi regarding sending of documents. then asked mi how long i've been working.. whether i'm a student.. wat sch i'm going to.. wat time is my lunch.. duhx.. trying to act funny wid mi..
got my next week schedule. not dat bad. but still hope i'll get the other job..
Monday, March 21, 2005
it's only 10 mins into my night shift n i'm feeling so sianx.. mainly bcos i was here about 45 mins earlier.. n to top it off, there's no one sitting near mi.. sumore those i can crap around wid r not here.. sigh..
went for interview at treasury building juz now. hmmx.. tink the chances of getting the job are quite low.. bcos the interviewers din reali haf much questions for me.. the whole session was lyk less than 10 mins. when the rest took about 15-20.. din reali noe wat to sae so most of the time was juz awkward silence n staring. sigh..
anywae guess i'll be continuing my stint at ocbc.. received a call this morning from ntuc income. apparently ocbc is interested in extending our assignment. so well.. guess i'll be working till end june unless i find greener pastures. lolx.
was offered a job by newsweek vendor also. asked me whether i'm interested in going back to mjc to promote the mag. but well.. interview is at causeway point.. duhx.. n imagine having to go all the way to pasir ris.. sianx.. then the lady offered mi alternatives lyk cjc, rjc n sajc which r nearer. but then i dun tink i'd lyk the idea of facing smart alecks everydae. so turned down dat offer. then the lady lyk not very happy wid mi.. well.. too bad..
anywae went for the dinner on sat. in the end, turned out onli mi n nazir n a bunch of ppl whom i dun noe.. luckily i still haf nazir, if not i'll be stoning there. well.. turned out brewerkz is quite not bad. though the food i ordered is a real big mistake. some portobello mushroom wid a serving of mashed potato. jerry said it tastes not bad though i'd sae dat it looks n taste lyk charcoal-ed mushroom. duhx.. but nazir's burger was not bad. quite a big serving though it is priced the same as mine. 17.99. shared a sample beer wid him too. consisted of 8 small glasses of different kinds of beer, ranging from 4.5% to 6.4% alcohol content. thankfully i could still walk home after dat wid the amount of alcohol i took. all bcos of jerry. kept challenging mi to drink. guess i downed about 1 litre of beer. made mi abit giddy n high-spirited after dat. however i did haf a nice n dreamless sleep after dat though.
Easter's coming. chc having the celebration at indoor stadium. anyone wanna come? there r services on both sat n sun. can call mi if u wanna go.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
it's sat!~ 40 mins more to end of my shift. lalala~ can't wait. going to celebrate 1 of my colleagues, felicia's bdae at brewerkz later. still haven reali decide whether i should go.. cos i dun reali wanna spend money liaox.. after yest.. but well.. if i dun go.. i'm lyk veri buay on.. argh.. i'm torn.. should i go or should i not?
nuthin much to do now.. quite a peaceful morning. no unpleasant calls lyk yest. Yet. hopefully it'll remain this way for the rest of the shift. :P
Friday, March 18, 2005
went to adidas sale at the expo wid val during my 5 hr break. the crowd there is reali huge wat wid all the numerous sports items up for grabs at reasonably low prices. managed to land myself a pair of shoes n a top. initiali tot the shoes cost 40 onli.. but at the cashier realised it is actuali 60.. so i've mistook the price for another which i tink is quite nice too. feel lyk buying but then tink i should reali restrict my spending liaox.. sigh.. no choice but to part wid it..
juz received a call from the agency mi n val went yest. guess our chances of securing the job has increased. received a call from the lady asking us to go for the 2nd round of interview wid the company. oh yeah!! i can finail rid myself from this job. hopefully we'll be able to breeze through the interview. :P
finali registered for my courses in uni le. din register for smu. though its new campus is juz a few steps away from my residence. mainly bcos i'm not dat into business n it's not as recognised as nus. reali hope i can get into my 1st choice. which is science and chemistry at nus n ntu respectively. cross my fingers.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
quite sianz.. tink i'm going to quit my job son. most likely they dun require my service any longer.. seeing they have just hired some new permanent staff. so was browsing through the classifieds this morning when i saw some which seems not bad. went for an interview wid val. it's another call centre job. pay is not bad. $6.40/ hr. at raffles place. hopefully we can be shortlisted.
been trying to apply for scholarships the last few daes.. tink it's reali futile. all the requirements are quite stringent. Dun tink i stand much of a chance. considering my grades n the virtually non-existance of my cca.. sigh.. i regretted quitting dat time bcos of my bro.. but well.. there's nuthin i can do now rite? no use weeping over spilled milk.
btw saw this rather nice accessory shop at raffles xchange. Nominations. can't believe the price of its accessories. it has a range of metal studs which can be linked up to form a bracelet. n each stud cost at least $41. the minimum starting price will be $47, inclusive of 12 plain studs n 1 wid designs. but sadly my wrist is not so small.. need to add 2 more studs.. imagine if i buy them, my whole day's pay also not enough.. but it's reali unique lorx.. shall consider.. since there's 15% discount now.
there's the new classification for the BMI. thankfully i'm still in the healthy zone. phew.. but well.. tink i wun be far from obesity if i continue to snack.
finally finished reading a book i borrowed from the library. "Alice Little & Big Girl's Blouse". it is quite a nice book n inspires people not to give up in times of adversity. Life is never smooth sailing. Just when things start to look up, problems will arise. We just have to learn to overcome whatever obstacles that come in our way. motivating right? haha.
Life iS a chOice.
iF u cAn't be tOtally hAppiE,
dUn bE cOmpletEly saD..
Friday, March 11, 2005
going for nus openhouse wid val n another fren tml. hmmx.. hopefully i'll be able to clear my doubts on where my interest truly lies in. i'm still at the cross roads of life..
asked my eldest sis last nite, told mi to go into science, namely chemistry. however, come to tink of it, i can't imagine studying chemistry for the rest of my life.. asked my 2nd sis, suggested arts n social science.. well.. i'm quite interested in some of its courses.. mainly pyschology, sociology n information n communications. but then i wonder if i'm cut out for them? somemore my eldest sis sae there's no prospects in these areas in singapore. i guess it's true also. wat's hot is engineering n life sciences. though i haf no interest in either.. sigh..
thinking of applying for scholarships. got snickers n scorns from some frens.. wid my kind of results i guess i'm reaching for a pie in the sky.. but then i hope i can find some kind organisation which will be willing to sponsor mi. if not i dunno how am i going to find the money to fund my studies? uni studies quite expensive lehx.. wid the hostel fees n purchase of laptop.. somemore sign can sign bond then i'll be assured wid a job when i graduate.. but well.. it's juz wishful tinking on my part..
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
it's been a few daes since the release of results. till now, i haf yet to decide on the course i wanna enrol into.. asking around n seems futile. i still haf no clue as to wat course reali interests mi. perhaps i'm fickle-minded.. all along, i tot i'd go into chemistry or anything close to dat.. however, lately, i'm beginning to question the possibility. arts n social science is appealing more to mi.. though i'm not sure wat r my prospects of choosing it..
been reading most of my fren's blogs.. n certain thinkings surfaced..
to shan ru:
i'm not veri good wid my language n doesn't haf a hoary of philosophies to advise u.. but well.. i'd juz lyk to sae wat i'm tinking of.. u mentioned u dun reali lyk to study, n even tot of giving up. as a fren, i wun encourage dat.. as u noe, we r living in singapore. without a decent degree, one can hardly amount to much. unless he's born wid a silver spoon, wid a large inheritance to back him. studying may be a chore, but well.. it is a necessity.. perhaps now u feel u haf dreams n aspirations u wanna realise, none of them requiring u to mug, but i reali hope u'll consider all the consequences. yes, i dun deny the satisfaction u'll get when u pursue the things u reali desire, however, i suggest u can achieve them at the same time while u study.. there's no need to gif up on either 1.. i reali hope u'll tink it through thoroughly n carefully. if u need some1 to tok to, i'll alwaes be juz a phonecall away. :P
LiFe iS abOut lIving.. liVing tHe liFe u wAnt..
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
shall continue my series of blogging todae. though there's basically nuthin much interesting going on. for the past few daes, during my 5 hr break, haf been walking around raffles xchange.. though i can save on the transport fees n the hassle of walking home, i've been spending more on food.. sigh.. guess going home might be a better option in future. so i'm growing fatter by the dae now.. argh..
bought a present for my colleague juz now. shared wid another colleague n her good frens. bought her an adidas bag n a toy ATM. anybody saw dat ATM b4? i tink it's reali fun n a good way to keep track of ur expenses. lolx. so now, i muz start tightening my belt already. if not how to go university.. no matter how hard i try to save, my bank accounts never seem to grow.. instead, it shrinks.. sigh..
val: thanx 4 ur encouragement. but well.. i guess all of us juz hafta get used to this kind of things.. all good things come to an end rite?
iF i sEarCh 4 uR hAnd,
wiLL u Hold mE?
iF i hEld Out my aRms,
wilL u hUg mE?
iF i gO 4 uR liPs,
wiLl u KisS mE?
iF i rEacH 4 uR heArt,
wiLL u lOve mE?
Monday, March 07, 2005
my trainer reali makes my dae.. although she's not my team leader she seems to be alwaes on the look out to find fault wid mi.. so irritating. @.@ i dun tink i did anything wrong lorx.. watever.. she's alwaes pushing her weight around.. so wat if she's here for 2 yrs le? abusing her powers onli.. juz lyk all the other senior staff.. pushing their weight around.. although there are exceptions too.. usuali the guys will be nicer. they'll help despite being more senior.. so i'd rather ask them, esp the team manager, who's quite friendly. :p
anywae, back to happier things. went out for dinner wid my family on sat. supposedly to celebrate my results. but well.. i dun tink there's much to celebrate.. n so we went to east coast for seafood. ok ba.. not dat fantastic n service is average.. after dat, went for a walk. dat's when i realised it's been centuries since i last went east coast park.. it has changed quite abit. now, there's a man-made lake there. heard dat it was there previously, though not accessible, so now it is opened to the public. i've got onli 1 word to describe it. Spectacular. n it's reali romantic to walk there in the evening or night. lolx.
hmmx.. 1 + hour to end of morning shift. can't wait~
Saturday, March 05, 2005
it's sat n i'm working.. how boring.. but nvm. just 2 more hours to go. after dat going for cg.. then everyone will ask mi about my results again.. dunno i've been reporting to how many zillion ppl.. haiz.. guess this is typical of singaporeans.. they lyk to compare results (or maybe some are genuine concern).. my mum especiali.. kept asking mi how i did.. all along she has never interfered wid my studies n grades.. dunno wat went over her.. din reali tell her my grades. not lyk she'll understand.. anywae she alwaes tell others i'm stupid n all.. so tell her also doesn't make any difference.
btw for those who r worrying about not being able to get into uni, i heard from my fren's teacher at yjc, that as long as u get at least 50 (including chi) u should be able to get into uni. so well.. for all those who din do dat well.. but not dat bad also.. u can set ur mind at rest le.
i guess there's reali a problem wid mi.. or is it the society? but more likely is mi.. bcos for some reason or other, i find dat my friendships are seldom stable.. perhaps i dunno how to manage them n i'm not good at expressing myself.. anywae something set mi thinking yest.. felt that i'm drifting apart from certain frens.. we used to be quite close, going out together but then as time goes by.. distance has set us apart.. we dun tok much n the feeling is juz not there anymore.. sigh.. tried to arrange to go out but it seems lyk there's alwaes hiccups.. n well.. i dunno wat i can do..
lOneLinEss iSn't sCary.. sOlitude iS..
Friday, March 04, 2005
got A levels results todae.. okie le.. better than i expected. got BBC. C is for maths. Gp got B3. well.. so i shan't complain so much. tot i'd cry but in the end i guess i'm juz immune to getting mediocre results. anywae tink mj did relatively well as a whole. there were 46 students with 3 Distinctions n 5 students with 4 Distinctions. n supposedly we are among the top 10 jcs. that's a relatively great achievement. n guess all meridians will walk wid a sense of pride in future.
still dunno wat course to take.. chemistry? seems quite hard to get in.. met mr kwek. asked mi wat course i intend to enrol for. told him chem or science related. he seemed hesitant n shocked. tot perhaps my results will not permit mi to secure a place. then he said he tot i should go for languages. he tinks i'm proficient in them. told him i got c6 for english at o'levels, gave him a shock. after dat met ibrahim at the canteen. tink he did relatively well but i forgot to ask him how he fared. he should be going for business n tot i should be going for languages too. he tinks i'm a relatively good writer. but well.. i dun tink so.. wid a 3 in gp n a 2 in chi, how to qualify for that course? registration starts todae but guess i'll wait sometime b4 i decide.. perhaps god will show mi the path ahead in due time.
received a belated bdae present from shaz n ama. it's a bear wrapped wid chocolates. heartfelt thanks! i reali lyk them n the card they printed for mi. it's real nice though the pictures of mi on it spoil them. lolx.
still 2 more hours to go before i can go home. i can hardly wait..
Thursday, March 03, 2005
went to watch movie at cinneleisure wid my colleagues just now. Lemony Snickets: A Series of Unfortunate Events, starred by jim carrey, emily browning, liam aiken. show is hilarious though there's moments of anguish bcos of the bad guy (jim carrey). lyk the little ger in the show, Sunny. doesn't noe how to speak legibly but only her own babyish language. her older brother,klaus is also quite cute. knowledgeable n smart. the eldest sister,violet is brave n quick thinking. together they triumphed over the bad guy. so overall, it's quite an enjoyable movie. considering how long it has been since i last watched 1..
16 more hours to the release of the deadly results.. i've been trying hard not to think about it.. but everyone just hafta keep reminding mi.. guess tml will be worse.. that's y initiali wanted to meet ppl b4 getting results, but on 2nd thoughts, i decided against it.. well.. it's alwaes lyk dat.. everyone will juz keep worrying about their results.. so might as well be alone rite? val suggest going somewhere to chill after getting results. but well.. i dun tink it'll materialise too. some ppl will be overjoyed, some will be gloomy. some do well, others r not so lucky.. so from past experience, it is highly likely everyone will juz go their own separate ways. so guess that will be our truly last meeting. well.. all the best to everyone!
i guess i reali need all the luck i can get.. i've not exactly been the most conscientious student.. in fact, i guess i'll be real happie if i dun flunk any subjects.. perhaps at least CCC will be good. now i can only cross my fingers n ask God to bless my results.
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
A Levels results will be out on fri.. so soon n we r going back to sch le.. exactly 1 week since we last went.. the last time was for a joyous occasion. but this time, i'm not so sure.. not really anticipating the coming of dat dae.. tink my results will be horrendous.. if there's even an A, it'll be a miracle.
