Complexity meets simplicity..
been going out the last few daes. muz make full use of the limited time i haf.. cos when i start work on tues then most probably no time le.. went for job training on thurs n fri.. kind of boring.. sitting there listening to those talks.. bleahz.. n it was quite cold there too.. though i got alot of my good friends (lipids) i was still shivering le.. brr.. after dat even felt lyk vomiting.. buden my stomach's empty so nuthin came out. lolx looking forward to the job at the airport. working as tourist ambassador. dunno if i'll be on the same shift as val they all? if not then i'll be so lonely.. how to lunch by myself.. sigh.. so far onli made a couple of new frens.. tink i look quite hostile? dat's according to my mum n sis le.. well.. dunno le..
tml i'm going ice skating wid darling n shanz. oh yeah! i've been wanting to go there since dunno how long ago.. so now my wish is fulfilled. :P hopefully i wun fell too many times cos is my 2nd time onli. the first time was wid my mates in my sch camp group Judah abt 2 yrs ago le.. speaking of which i kind of miss them n the camping daes.. dunno how've they been?
prom is coming up soon.. feeling quite apprehensive.. tink i can be 1 of the wall flowers on dat dae? argh.. wat haf i gotten myself into.. hmmx.. dunno how i'm going to go there? maybe ask my sis bf to send mi.. buden my sis sae no good deals for her she dun wan lehx.. so ngiao..
tOt of tHe dAe: When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore him.. But when that special someone is not around, you look around to find him. At that moment, you are in love..
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
yesterdae marks the end of A levels.. official beginning of holidaes! went to outram in the morning wid clara to an agency.. tink they also dun haf a job for mi unless i can start immediately at moe.. nahx.. anywae i got the airport job which will start on 1st dec. afternoon went orchard wid dear. quite some time since i last saw her but still can recognise her le.. lolx. dyed n highlighted her hair.. notti notti.. not lyk mi.. walked around but in the end nv buy anything.. cos no money le.. so hafta find more work.
feeling kind of unhappie.. dun understand y jq alwaes not happie wid mi.. this wk not free to go out also my prob? din even tell mi he on leave this wk.. then when i arranged all the things i wanna do liaox then sae i dun haf time for u.. well.. watever.. sae i'm rude, sae i'm mean. if lidat is rude is mean then he haven seen wat real meaness is. well.. if dun lyk then dun come n kajiao mi.. not lyk i'm forcing him rite? guess when he read this, gonna sae i'm not being nice to him again.. watever. i'm juz a mean n insensitive lass.
m i gullible or wat? i tink this is the dunno how manieth time i've wondered.. if u lyk someone already then sae so le.. dun hafta lie to mi rite? i'm fuming not bcos of wat but bcos i hate being cheated! scumbug.. dun even tink of asking mi wait for u.. cos i will nv. period.
btw i lyk the new malaysian singer, zhang dong liang. cos he sang my fav song!~ though not as nice.. lolx. but still not bad. bcos of him i got to hear it on radio more often while i study.. :p
tOt oF tHe dAe: dUn eVer iNfurIate a wOman, esp a peTty one. u wUn lyk wAt u sEe.
Friday, November 19, 2004
juz finished chem paper 1.. hmmx.. wat can i sae? well.. basically i tink all my papers r gone le.. so i guess my a levels is a total disaster.. guess i wun be able to go uni next yr.. initiali tot i can throw all my notes away after a's. but now.. guess i hafta keep them in case i need to retake.. sigh.. tink my parents will faint when they see my results? anywae last paper left.. econs paper1 n 2 on mon. after dat can go play~ everything can waot till march next yr..
got a call from kelly's services juz now.. finali. after 3 wks of waiting they haf finali gotten back to mi.. offered mi a job at the airport. giving out of goodie bags to the tourists. quite cool?! $6 per hr, 8 hrs a day, 5 daes a wk.. sounds not bad ar? but the thing is muz be able to do shift work.. i wun mind but i guess most ppl would? hu wanna take up this job can sms mi asap? thanx :P
dunno if u reali serious or wat.. but well.. i dunno.. it seems lyk so.. din reali tink u'll take my word for it.. 50 sms a dae.. ur bill dun explode mine will lorx.. i dun lyk to start a relationship the virtual way.. be it making frens or wat.. is lyk so uncertain.. dun even noe wat the person is reali tinking of? oh well.. juz let nature take its course then.
looking forward to end of A's.. buden it isn't such a good thing afterall.. may hafta make some decisions which i dun lyk.. argh.. n prom is coming up.. but we've no clue as to wat is going to happen? no tickets. no dates.. other jcs' seem much nicer? sigh..
n my favourite time of the yr is coming soon!~ this yr muz be better than last. muz go c xmas lightings n all.. lalala~ dunno hu wanna go wid mi? last yr actuali val they all wanna go but in the end nv.. so sad..
oh yeah.. my house downstairs got book fair.. 19 till 30th of this month.. anybody coming can call mi along. lolx. tink i abit bo liaox.. :P dun tink anyone will still wanna touch books after a's..
tOt oF tHe dAe: lEave bEhinD wat wE dUn neEd to caRry.. gRudges.. regRets.. sAdness.. fLy ligHt n liFe iS beAutifUL!~
Thursday, November 04, 2004
back from the hospital. visited my grandma.. tink she's getting better le.. was told she can be discharged tml.. dat's good. 1 thing less to worry. met my aunt there. sae i shou le.. maybe bcos of my haircut? cos i dun tink i shed any kilos..
outside is raining cats n dogs.. thunder.. lightning.. guess it reali depicts wat i'm feeling inside rite now. can't reali tink of words to describe this feeling.. but definitely it's not one of joy.. in fact, i feel a sense of dread.. well.. gp was a flop.. feeling damn disappointed n screwed now.. not lyk i totally din prepare myself.. at least i flipped through past papers.. but still essay wrote way out of point.. if i can pass i tink it will be a miracle.. compre was quite bad too.. din manage to cough up enuff words for summary.. AQ was a major disaster too.. argh.. i'm feeling so screwed now.. complained to my sis.. tink i will fail.. ask mi how i noe? of cos i noe.. somethings u can sense one.. sigh.. i dun wanna repeat next yr.. sob.. this is the first time i'm so worried over a paper.. first time i mull n cry over one.. n the more i tink, the more i weep n the worse i feel.. guess there's reali nuthin much i can do now except pray.. god, can u give mi a miracle? i noe dat's abit difficult to ask for.. well..
there's no harm asking anywae..
tOt of tHe dAe: theRe cAn be mIraCles.. if U beliEve..
