Complexity meets simplicity..
another week has passed.. guess i haf juz been wasting my time.. managed to study a couple of times onli.. went airport n sch study wid js twice.. bad choice i muz sae.. din even do much.. argh.. anywae thurs was the chem prac.. initiali was quite ok.. titration.. hope my values n calculations r correct? next was reaction kinetics.. not dat bad too.. but tink my graph maybe got error.. n din do the planning.. bleahx.. last was qa.. still quite some time left.. buden the colour so weird (guess i colourblind le..) .. did twice for quite a no. of tests.. so in the end no time for planning.. there goes my 10 marks.. argh!! buden overall, tink it wasn't dat bad? hopefully i can get at least a B le?
yest my grandma was admitted to hospital... seems lyk this yr my family has affinity wid it? went to visit her wid my 2nd sis.. she's back from shandong liaox.. bought mi a cashmere.. not bad quality. anywae back to my grandma, tink is a lao ren bing.. she 88 liaox.. din reali notice she's dat old.. sae she feel pain all over.. buden doctor not there le.. so dunno wat's her condition reali lyk.. asked the nurse.. sae they suspect she got congestive heart failure.. something too much fluid in her body.. sigh.. sounds quite serious? feel veri sad for her.. :( then tried to tok to her.. but my dialect lyk ban tong shui (half a bucket of water).. din reali understand wat she toking.. ask mi question i also dun reali noe how to answer.. :x went home ask my san jie n da jie go visit her todae.. buden da jie hafta work.. then my san jie lyk dun care.. sae hu ask her alwaes dun take care of her diet.. buden even if lyk dat muz still go c her mahx.. so mean.. hmm.. hope nuthin serious will happen.. though last time alwaes tink she quite irritating.. alwaes getting on my nerves god bless my grandma.
January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse
Mouse: Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder, people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-togethers. However, you are sensitive, which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!
*actuali i dun reali agree wid this.. cos i'm not mischeivious, nor cute n attractive to others.. fun-to-be with? no lehx.. tink i'm quite a bore.. maybe it's wat circumstances make u n not the date of birth..
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
about 10 more daes to A's.. die liaox.. i haven started on my econs.. actuali dun reali feel lyk studying econs.. argh.. chem also less than halfway.. maths not dat bad.. buden every time tot i noe in the end... sigh.. i can't wish for this to end..
been feeling quite unhappie over the last few daes.. all bcos of u le.. u noe hu u r.. dunno y we alwaes seem to haf misunderstandings? communication breakdown i guess.. anywae.. i juz wanna sae dat wat happened dat dae wasn't entirely my fault.. everytime put the blame on mi.. humph! i veri tired of this liaox lorx.. dun lyk then dun tok to mi le.. watever.. dun alwaes tell mi to change, cos i wun.
guess u muz be real free.. msg mi everydae.. bud i getting abit tired.. dunno wat to sae.. maybe should gif mi some space.. n lyk u sae.. leave everything till after A's..
anywae my 2nd sis going shandong n maybe beijing.. wid her church ppl.. mission trip? flight is at 2 or 3 tml morning? dun tink i'll send her off.. well.. she's going for 1 week.. woah.. so nice.. too bad i can't go.. i've nv gone overseas lehx.. except malaysia.. argh... sec 4 wanted go perth for geog trip.. in the end bcos of terrorist attack was cancelled.. sigh.. guess i'm suay.. some things r juz not meant to be..
In the arms of an angel
Fly away
From this dark cold room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
Friday, October 15, 2004
it's reali the last dae of sch. mixed feelings of joy n sadness, disappointment n relief. i guess i'll reali miss all those pple i noe.. n also the times we had shared.. the bonds we haf forged.. although mj wasn't my ideal sch initiali.. buden now i tink it wasn't dat bad afterall. i've grown n matured.. i tink all of us haf? now, being the last dae n all.. i juz wanna sae thanx to everyone hu is part of my experience in mjc. though some things may be insignificant to u all, it means a great deal to mi.
val, though we r no longer in the same class, i'll nv forget the times we had together last yr. i rem the times we were so bored we went to jurOng pOint n harbour front. from 1 end to the other.. n the journey alone makes our butt stiff.. haha. anywae i juz wanna sae i reali enjoyed ur company n rem dat pOwerpuFf gErs rOx! :P
dArling, still rem the first time we met? it may be more than a yr bud it seemed lyk yesterdae. fate has brought us together( sounds a bit cliche? lolx) n for some reason we click quite well? though we r not exactly vv similar in character (u r more extrovert n dare to speak up) buden u understand mi quite well. thanx for listening to my nonsense n all. n dun forget our date to go clubbing ya? ^_*
shAnz, dIn nOe u veRi well tiLl pw started. somehow we also click? maybe cos we r both quite similar in nature? (lame n all..) still rem the times we go out together on fri.. plae pool n shop at orchard. those were the daes. anywae thanx for keeping mi company.. the trip to chinese garden n all the study sessions we haf together. anywae, dun forgEt to aSk mi out even when we've parted ya? u'll alwaes by my daughter.
oLi, though i wasn't dat cloSe to u, buden i reali appreciated the times we haf.. the study sessions at the airport n in the sch library n the movies we watched together. i reali admire the patience u haf (can put up wid certain ppl). n muz haf more confidence in urself n dun dwell in the past yeah? u haf a grEat smile. ")
deAr, though u r no longer in mj, buden wun forget the times we went home n come sch together. n also the times we go shop together.. however rare, bud they r etched in my memory. thanx for being there for mi, ur lame jokes n ur so-called psychis power. stay chEerful!
sUn, i onli gOt to nOe u this yr. maybe cos we xiang yi wei ming? lolx. anywae, thanx for the fun n laughter u brought mi.. though there were times of exasperation n agony.. lolx. all in all, i reali enjoyed ur company n ur encouragement. thanx. stay zanny ya?
ju, dunno if u even read my blog.. anywae thanx for being so crazy n fun to be wid. wun forget the times we haf had, the dae we went to ur house.. yummy food n all.. n u r 1 minah i wun forget. stAy funKy ya? *.*
zX, pw member. initiali tot u veri lame kind of duhx.. buden got to noe u better, tink u r quite a nice guy.. crappy alwaes.. lolx. enjoyed our conversations on the train on our way to sch n also the few times we studied at singpost. thanx for the cold jokes. buden 'shy' guy, muz take initiative le..
maRk, for some reason u may not tok to mi now, buden i still rem the times we played pool last yr n the stupid bets we haf.. nice toking to u too. thanx for being my fren bud dun be so dao le..
py, dunno when i started toking to u.. anywae, pleasure noeing u. though u lyk to 'giap' mi? cos u so dao n all.. dun even noe we r frens anot.. anywae wun forget dat time we went sim lim n got into the hei dian. dunno is i dai suay u or u dai suay mi.. anywae, thanx for being a fren though now u can't pull my hair liaox. n also dun slouch so much le.. wait become shorter lahz.. lolx =]
hmmx.. to those i nv mention, not dat i dun treasure u or wat.. buden there r juz too many to name.. well.. all in all, 03s309 n 03s307 roX!~ n not forgetting all the teachers. let's all work hard n do mEridian proud? aLl the bEst! gambate~
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
oops.. guess i din make good my word. still came online to blog.. :x cos went shopping wid my da jie n san jie. long time since we went out together? dunno y as we grow older we become closer?so now no mood to study le.. hmmx.. went to harbour front. tot it was supposed to be 1 of the greatest shopping mall? bleahx.. nuthin much there. buden i still bought a dress. for prom. managed to psycho my eldest sis to pay for mi. :P so now hafta go on diet le.. in case become fatter cannot wear le..
graduating on fri le. it's also college openhouse. tink shld be quite fun? buden dun tink we can enjoy lyk last year.. sigh..
i tot we r frens? guess maybe is juz wishful tinking on my part..
tOt oF tHe dAe: mei ren ai de nu ren zui ke lian.. wo de you tiao zai na li?
last week of sch.. wow.. how time flies.. if onli i can turn back the hands of time.. reali not much time left le.. oh god, pls gif mi the power to overcome this huge obstacle. i dun wanna repeat.. argh.. maybe i should stop whining n start working? well.. ok. let this be my last post(hopefully).
anywae, i guess ppl can reali sense it when someone has a liking for them? i also dunno how cum it became so weird.. was juz toking abt sch n stress n watnot when suddenly subject became something else.. or perhaps i was juz being too sensitive? but it souns abit urm.. wat being the most important person? anywae said we'll tok abt it after my exams. so i guess maybe by then any feelings will fade liaox.. anywae, it's alwaes been lidat. he may sae he lyk u now but a few wks later, no response from u, he'll move away, rite? so wait till then then we'll see le..
btw, during breaktime in the canteen, jinjin was sitting beside mi at the same table. sun was sitting opp mi so can get quite a good view of him? n she was super quiet. shy? lolx. but after dat walking to the lt, she was gushing le.. so lyk her.. haha. hmmx.. wonder if he noes she lyk him?too bad it din turn out lyk oli's plot in her fanfic.. lolx
I tried so hard to be someone
That I forgot who I am
I tried to fill some emptiness
still all I had spilled over.
Now everything is so far away
That I don't know where I am..
When all that I wanted
And all that I had
Don't seem so much
For me to hold on to
For me to belong to..
They say,
When it is hard to be yourself
It is not to be someone else.
Still everything is so far away
That I forget where I am..
tOt of tHe dAe: wo ai de ren bu hai wo..
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
so sianx.. actuali could haf gone home.. if not for the chem extra lesson.. bleahx.. so now hafta wait 2hr 15 mins.. so sianx.. anywae i cut my hair liaox.. so short.. argh.. miscommunication wid the auntie again.. so now i'll hafta wait 1 yr for my hair to grow to the previous length? argh.. does anyone noe of any ways to make ur hair grow faster? muz inform mi le.. anywae i tink quite some ppl wondering y i cut my hair.. too stressed? nahx. changing my image? haha. perhaps. maybe now i'll look younger.. lolx.
i tink i'm reali dead for a levels liaox.. reali no mood to study.. been going out shopping during the weekends wid my sis. they alwaes psycho mi go out.. if not sae i recluse.. duhx.. anywae bought a pair of new shoes. nice. but dun tink wil haf much chance of wearing. a levels haven even started n i feel dat it has ended.. tinking of wat to do after a's when right now i should be tinking of a's? duhx.. i'm feeling stressed n relaxed at the same time.. ironic yeah.. dat's the way i am, i guess.
anywae i guess there's reali nuthin i can do.. i've tried toking.. but it doesn't seem to work. so i shan't bother myself wid it anymore. period.
i'm waiting for you
it's been so long..
i'm sad when i'm on my own.
They said it takes a long long time
if it's not too much
could you hear me now?
you promised me
you'd always be here
when i wake up..
there's something worth thinking about
get it out of my head.
something worth kicking around
something you said..
i dont know when i'm right.
i only know when i'm wrong
so when you gonna live some life
show it off
cause i cant see...
cause i'm waiting...
tOt oF tHe dAe: loVe is lyk an umbRellA..
