Complexity meets simplicity..
i dunno wat to do.. seems lyk nobody's doing anything.. toked to my 2nd sis last nite. suggested i be the mediator.. well.. easier said than done.. i've nv been a person good at words... guess lyk my sis sae.. it is even more difficult to patch when the frenship is reali close.. nobody wants to initiate a reconcilation. actuali, i'm still quite clueless as to how things evolve to lyk this.. personalli, i experienced a similar thing when i joined 307. felt dat the feeling is no longer there.. or maybe the bond is not dat strong.. buden unless u make the effort nuthin is going to change. though sometimes feel vv tired.. n it seems lyk nuthin has changed.. reali feel lyk giving up.. buden i guess growing up is lidat one.. sigh..
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
got back all my results todae.. which is reali bad.. gp got 55.. cos my essay real bad.. mr kwek sae is a wrong question to do.. but i tot it's ok mahx.. "women is the salvation or destruction of the family". compre not dat bad.. got 29.. though he sae it's quite easy n a no. of ppl got 30++ well.. got e for both maths n econs n an ao for chem.. this is reali bad.. chem has alwaes been 1 of my better subject.. but now.. well.. i guess everything comes wid a price.. my maths improved by 2 grades but my chem fell by 3.. bleahx.. this is even worse than mid yr.. dunno my a level how liaox.. argh.. i onli got 30 points.. n the ideal mark is above 50 in order to get into a science faculty? bleahx.. i'm so dead..
well.. things haf reali taken a turn for the worse.. 2 yrs of frenship is almost broken into pieces.. n i'm stuck in the middle? but not dat stuck also.. since i'm not in the same class. but it is reali quite bad.. wat will it be lyk on prom nite? we'll be sitting at the same table.. can juz imagine.. argh.. y does this hafta happen?
i miss my secondary life.. triggered by all these incidents n also the late nite trip wid my dad n sisters to the airport on sat.. i miss the nite tours we had.. the times we roamed the streets of singapore late in the nite to take fotos.. the times we played wid the trolleys at the airport n kena scolded by the police.. the times we chatted abt almost anything under the sun.. i wonder if u all feel dat way too.. sometimes i regretted not going tp.. all my best frens r there.. unlyk here.. sigh.. i miss the church n also cca camps we had in sch.. those were such wonderful times.. but they r all gone.. juz fragments of my memory.. :( time n tide reali wait for no man..
ah ru: thanx for ur affirmation. though i'm not reali sure if i reali made any impact in ur life.. i miss the times when we go to the hawker centre at my aunt's house. gone were those daes.. but i'll alwaes treasure them.. though we seldom meet up now.. but i noe i can alwaes count on u when i got a problem. thanx! take care n jia you for A levels. after dat we can go enjoy le..
tOt oF tHe dAe: thEre's nO uSe lOoking bAck.. tHe pAst will jUz bEcOme a tRippIng stone..
Friday, September 24, 2004
i'm so bored.. feeling quite upset too.. haix.. dunno y this is happening again.. relationships r one of the most vulnerable things i guess.. esp in the time we live in now? buden to the first person i met in meridian, i assure u dat though we alwaes encounter changes, our frenship will not be so easily daunted. so be strong n hold on. maybe all of us should sit down 1 dae n reflect on our ownselves? each of us haf a part to plae in maintaining a frenship.. usuali we r too eager to point out the speck in other ppl's eyes but not the plank in ours.. in a relationship, i tink it's important to give n take. well.. i reali dun wish the frenship to wither so quickly.. remember the bonds we forged.. the happie moments we shared.. so do try to take into account those n not juz the unhappie times.. before deciding to give up or to let go.. sigh.. even i'm feeling the intensity of this.. this is reali bad.. is this the end of everything? reminds mi of keane's song.. lol. n also a song i sang in pri sch.. well.. if i dun remember wrongly.. it goes something lyk..
friendship
in words n action
show someone
whom u reali care.
friendship
for all the good times
in bad times
a fren is alwaes there.
frenz bring out the best in u
they noe ur strength n weaknesses.
frenz bring out the best by far
is when frenz bring out us
juz the way we r.
frenz r rich or poor
frenz r different races
frenz, true frenz
ur whole life long, life-long.
tOt oF the dAe: fRenZ r fRenZ fOreveR..
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
finali it's the end of prelims! *phew* though i tink i'll do even worse than midyr.. screwed up everything.. argh.. anywae it's all over le. n i got a long lOng weekend ahead. sch onli starts next mon cos still got papers going on. yeah!~ can go enjoy liaox. hmmx.. quite a no. of daes since i updated. so i shall onli tok abt the more interesting stuff?
sat, went to the lantern festival at chinese garden wid shanz n my sis n her bf n family. theme was east meet west. anywae shanz sae tink feel quite 'bright'? lolx. if lidat then his family all also le? but no le.. they alreadi used to it i guess? when we walk in, we were greeted by the disney characters. walking further, we saw many 'mickeys' of different nationalities. nice nice. din manage to take much fotos.. cos stupid person dun let us wander by ourselves.. sae later then take.. later dark liaox lehx.. dumb. so we walk n walk aimlessly. took fotos wid the 'lion'. tink the 2 guys vv poor thing.. esp the 1 at the back. muz keep bending cos many kids wanna take foto wid them. after dat went up to the pagoda. half walk half ran all the way up. 6 storeys.. legs breaking cos i wasn't wearing comfy shoes. in the end the top level was locked. duhx.. after dat continued to walk.. took fotos wid zhu ba jie. but the 'west' one not nice.. sun wukong, mulan all not nice.. or maybe not as nice as disney's. after dat we separated from my sis n her bf n family cos they wanna go home liaox.. in the end left shanz n mi walking by ourselves.. cos we still haven founf lilo n stitch n winnie. finali we left at around 10. reach home so tired liaox.. but at least the trip was quite enjoyable being my first time there.
tml dunno where to go.. wanna go out but no one to go out wid.. so pathetic.. shanz they all going to sing kbox.. dun reali haf the gift of singing le.. so forget it le.. maybe rot at home. or maybe not exactly. can be couch potato. haha
oh yeah.. stairway to heaven is veri nice! but veri typical korean show also.. watched 1 episode so was quite bewildered by how the drama unfold? haha. the ger was supposed to marry this guy but in the end is her sister? but the guy reali lyks her.. so sad..
Another day has gone..
I'm still all alone..
How could this be..
You are not here with me..
You never said goodbye..
Someone tell me why?
Did you have to go..
And leave my world so cold..
Everyday I sit and ask myself..
How did love slip away..
But you are not alone..
For I am here with you.
Though we are far apart..
You are always in my heart.
tOt of tHe dAe: wOuld u cRy fOr m oh mY lOve?
Sunday, September 05, 2004
1 more wk b4 prelims start.. n i'm still not in the mood to study.. argh.. went shopping wid my sis after gp paper yest. cos i tink gp no hope le.. din manage to finish my essay n the aq too.. sighz.. anywae bought a skirt n a pair of shoes.. so now broke le.. bud nvm le.. it's been a long time since i last shopped. n finali got a chance to use my visa mini!~ lolx.
met joe on mon. came to watch the soiree. bud i dun rem him in mj for 1st 3 mths? anywae i tink he's quite ok wat.. vv friendly to mi mahx.. dunno y many ppl sae he ap? hmmx.. miss the times in sec sch when we had ps camps.. miss those juniors too.. dunno y. bud i seem to be closer to them than to the seniors..
anywae,went to zouk juz now. wid my sis n her bf. first time i go there. not veri nice.. reeks of cigarette there. bud not bad le.. we got vip tickets. cos is some nkf event. n there's this boy band North. n i got to c them so up close. they were standing lyk 10 cm from mi. ah~~ n there was 1 quite shuai. the tallest of them all.. but dunno wat's his name.. i tink those fans muz be so envious cos we r lyk so near them. buden pity i nv make use of this to go shake their hands.. shy lehx.. lolx. anywae their songs r quite nice n their dance too. n the veejay denise is quite chio too. envious of her good figure lehx.. i muz reali go on a diet le..
so sianx.. my sis n her bf quarrelled again.. this time more serious. maybe they might break up soon? aiyarx.. i also dunno le.. dun wanna care le..
tOt oF tHe dAe: it's bEttA tO bE frEnz thAn lOvers.. fRenz cAn lAst a lIfetIme but lOveRs wiLl pArt oNe dAe..
