Complexity meets simplicity..
oh yeah~ finali got a silver for my napfa~ but i missed 2 cm for sbj.. if not can get gold le.. argh.. but anywae xavier iz a vv nIce guy. actuali supposed to retake the 5 items but he allow us to take the 1 we failed. so good! cos i dun tink i can do as well le.. got 2 As, sit up n sit n reach, B for shuttle run. missed by 0.1 s to A!! but i run once lazy to run again.. cos by then got many other cls ppl watching.. then the rest got C except for sbj which got D.. sigh.. there goes my gold.. n vv sad also.. cos xavier leaving le.. such a nice teacher but he leaving le.. then he was telling us hope we get a better teacher next time cos he dun exactly approve of choy's method.. maybe he'll be happier at a new working environment? anywae wish him all the best in his future endeavours~ tink i'll miss him.. sobz..
anywae todae esther lai tok to us abt how fast time flies.. n blah blah blah.. haiz.. feeling so stressed.. tink i cannot make it le.. buden everytime reach home.. i'm lazy to study.. sighz.. reali muz find someone study wid mi le.. buden everyone stay so far from mi.. sianz.. by the time study finish go home i also sianz le.. so how lehx??
oh.. sun went to the big walk wid shan shan, joyce n lynette. got tricked by the stupid shuttle bus service. tot might drop us at the stadium but actuali at some bus stop near the mrt station.. to tink we queued so long.. duhx.. n the walk wasn't dat fun.. eveybody seems to be stepping on everyone else.. not much sun sumore.. argh.. waste my time n effort.. humph! but anywae learnt of many juicy news dat dae. 1st, ln does not lyk mr kwek. juz some stupid pairing up by the cls ppl. lolx. 2nd, mic is attached le. sumone from my cls. hmmx.. guess he reali lyk tanned gers le. 3rd, lr is attached, though not from our sch one. hmmx.. now then i realise my cls alot ppl attached b4. hmm.. surprising. lastly, was asked if py n my r together anot. or she wid zz. cos py n my seems to be rather close? hmmx.. guess dat hafta ask the ppl involved le.. not my business anywae.
i wanna watch dae after tml n harry potter.. but no one watch wid mi.. harry potter ok le.. got shanz they all. bud dae after tml? hmmx..
tOt of tHe dAe: be|ng dEeply luRved bY sOme0nE gif u sTrenGth bUd lUrvIng sOmeoNe gIfs u cOurAge ^-^
Saturday, May 22, 2004
juz read sr blog. vv glad to noe dat i'm a veri veri gd fren of hers. cos sometimes i look back n wonder if i've got any frens at all.. so it's heartening to hear dat she regard mi as one.. somemore a veri good one at dat. thanx le sr! :P she haf been a vv nice fren too. maybe we can click iz bcos we r both capricorn? buden she iz the true-blue type while i'm not exactly le. bud still, she iz 1 of the few i can reali tell my problems to. now, different sch le.. so hard to meet up.. i miss the times we go out after cca.. n those in the darkroom too.. buden time n tide wait for no man.. sigh..
yest went to support my soccer match at ccab. mj against yj. initially tot we'd win.. cos din tink they r vv good.. buden in the end we lost.. not bcos they r good. bud i tink they vv fake. a little bit then injury le.. lyk tofu lidat.. humph! bud anywae i tink mj played vv well. kudos to them! though we lost during the penalty kick, 6-5, we haf integrity. n getting 4th iz vv good already. 3 cheers for mj soccer!
another thing, sometimes i tink i'm vv irritating.. seems to get on ppl's nerves? maybe next time i should juz shut up n keep quiet. so yest after the match i was quite quiet le.. din tok much. dun wan to agitate some ppl. ok le. so i guess next time i will try to keep my enquiries n excitement to myself le.
tml going to big walk. hopefully can become chao ta n even sicker.. then mon can no need go sch. no need take maths test. yeah~
tOt of thE dAe: i hAte mysElf. fOr being so fAke, pretending to be hApp|e when i'm actuali not.. pretending to be okAy when evrything's not well..
Thursday, May 20, 2004
lalala~ i tink i'm on cloud 9! or even higher? lolx partly bcos i heard sa won the bball championship against hc for bois~ though the gers lost.. but it doesn't matter. cos i'm more interested in guys match. haha. anywae heard he played vv well!! but too bad i couldn't go to c him plae.. got maths remedial.. argh.. last yr went to support but they lost.. this yr nv go then they win.. maybe i'm a jinx to them? sigh.. n the stewpig py.. go there nv jio mi along.. humph! heard he went wid yx? good thing he nv ask mi.. otherwise i'd be so xtra.. bud i'm feeling so depressed dat i missed the match.. sob.. tot of msging him to congratulate him.. buden dunno if he still rem mi? not lyk we kept in contact since last yr.. sighz.. finali cannot bear it no longer.. found his no. then msg him. vv happie when he replied mi.. cos quite prompt. unlyk many others hu alwaes take sO long to reply mi.. n wat's more. he sae of cos he still rem mi le!~ lala~ make mi so happie. all in all got 6 msgs wor~ *hee* buden next time dunno he'll still msg mi so much anot? guess not. haix.. n dunno if he's attached now le? bud even if not, sure muz haf alot of gers hu lyk him one le.. bball guys r alwaes so attractive.. for most gers including mi? lolx
anywae, actuali wanted to go for dinner wid lw.. dunno y.. he's feeling quite sad le.. tink he drank too much last nite.. so being his fren, tot might as well pei him n cheer him up? buden in the end, decided not to go.. cos i stink after pe.. then got quite some hw undone too. so fly his butterfly.. so paiseh.. tink he even more pissed now? but ok le.. he nv reali sae mi.. otherwise i'll feel so guilty..
tOt oF the dAe: luRve iZ nOt aBt pOssEssIon. It iZ fEeLing hAppIe fOr hIm whEn hE's hAppIe~
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
having break now.. so using sch com.. i'm feeling so sick now lorx.. having a terrible headache.. since the moment i woke up.. n having sore throat too.. tink i scream too much yest? so now feeling lyk shit. alot ppl nv cum to sch todae also lorx.. tink i shouldn't haf cum too? sigh..
yest went to support soccer match at ccab. mjc against sajc. initial mj leading by 2-0. buden 2nd half.. sa caught up n got in 3 goals n 2 off sides. actuali i tink our sch did rather well le.. at least we weren't thrashed too badly? n it's the firsttime mj got apirit. everyone cheered n i tink dat's the spirit we should haf. bud vv sad.. din get to c the preson i wanna c.. sigh. bud i saw cyn n jennie.. seems lyk they r getting along vv well at sa? good le.. though now i tink mj is not dat bad afterall le. :P oh yeah.. saw siwei there too. din change much le he.. still as crappy as ever.
celebrated ju's n oli's bdae too. the cake was so chocolatey? muz haf gained weight after eating it.. n tml got 2.4 run sumore.. sianz..
iz it poSsible to lyk sOmeone u've nV met b4? i dUn tInk so.. sO hOw cAn jq sAe he's gOt feelings for mi? crazy.. n i dun fEel dAt he reAli lyks mi.. cOs nOt lyk he rEply my msg quickly.. alwaes hafta wait at least 10 mins fOr his reply.. if he reali lyk mi, he will bother to reply faster rite? watever le.. dun care.
tOt of the dAe: lOve cUms whEn u leAst eXpect It?
Saturday, May 15, 2004
now listening to dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui~ so long nv hear le.. but still my fav song! then my da jie sae i too 'bei shang'.. alwaes lyk those sad sad songs.. quite true le.. but i also dunno y le.. i'm more drawn to those types of songs lehx.. maybe can relate to them?
todae is the 1st time i go to a pawnshop. abit paiseh when i go in.. cos there's this cj guy.. muz be tinking wat kind of ger i m.. to be going to a pawnshop.. anywae tink my bro vv bad le.. my father give him a gold necklace n he go n pawn it?! but my dad dunno. onli mi, my 2nd sis n san jie noe.. if my da jie or my dad ever noe of it.. tink it'll be disaster.. at least now redeem le so guess it shld be ok le?
after dat went out wid shanz. to buy ju's present. actuali wanted to buy a bra set cos she wanted, but in the end we bought perfume. nice smell. ck crave` though i tink ck summer also not bad. anywae spent the whole afternoon n evening in orchard.. from far east to robinsons dat stretch. shanz wanted to buy hair accessories but seems lyk heeren change alot le. alot shops under renovation.. so in the end nuthin to buy.. so sianz..n yeah. met this weird guy on the train on the way to orchard. maybe he tink i vv fat or wat le.. blocking his way? mi n shanz toking.. then suddenly i felt this cold hand on my arm. turn around saw this guy. tink he's trying to walk past mi but i blocking him? buden he dun hafta touch mi rite? juz sae excuse mi can liaox mahx.. i also not deaf.. then he got this cool n fierce look. as if i step on his toes lidat.. crazy. then after dat shanz sae his shirt lyk vv tight? haha. maybe some ah beng le.. but i tink he's trying to look lyk huang zhi wei? the yandao in the rose! but too bad. he's far from it le.
btw shanz told mi dat mark sae i vv bad.. alwaes reject ppl. where got?! tink there r not many ppl i ever rejected lorx.. 1 hand can count liaox lorx.. in fact 1 finger is enuff lorx..
n oh yeah. tink i got potential to be a love consultant? everytime dome guy got trouble wid wooing gers alwaes ask mi for advice? tot i'm quite experienced? but sadly no lorx.. but still tink my advice r still quite useful le.. lolx
tOt oF the dAe: wOoing sOmebodY requires sInceRity n actIonS, nOt juZ empty tOk.
Friday, May 14, 2004
tOdae was our sch's 2nd track n field meet. initialy din feel lyk going.. but in the end still went le. n it's a good thing i went. cos it's so mUch mUch mOre fUn then last yr! perhaps there's j1 dat's y.. cos those 101 n 103 ppl were studying while the rest of us were cheering lorx.. win liaox le.. but hu cares abt them anywae.. n i tink trItOn hAs finally becOme more alive? more enthu le.. cos even karishma cheered?! surprising.. n i also cheered until no more voice le.. but it's worth it cos we emerged champion for the cheering competition!~ though we din come in top 3 overall.. but it was still a good fight we put on.. 3 cheers for all those hu participated, muhd, mau, andrew, n esp my dear, came in 1st for 4x100m. n our teachers r quite good too. esp jt. todae then i realise he can run vv fast. usualy c him swagger so slowly.. hu will expect him to run so fast? lolx so all in all, i tink tRitOn has shown great improvement fOr last yeAr n i tink it's nOt such a bAd house afterall. trItOn rOx`~!
i signed up for Big wAlk le! finali.. cos last 3 daes le.. this yr onli 5 km.. weird..but hope it'll be fun. though there's onli mi n shan shan.. :(
oh yeah.. still haven decide whether to go for band concert.. not bad le.. the preview they gave yest. cos i lyk first love!~ then i was telling darling dat it will be vv romantic if a guy propose to u wid a band playing dat song. lolx but it'll nv happen le.. at least not to mi. haha n anywae now still too earli to tink of marriage. haven even got a bf how to get married? haha
tOt oF the dAe: lOve iZ lyk a bUttErfLy~
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
argh.. 2nd time i'm typing this.. cos accidentaly press esc? #@@** okiex.. so now i hafta tink of wat i was saying juz now..
yest i din go to sch.. bcos i hafta go see a dentist.. then mrs chong dun believe mi.. watever lorx.. not lyk i purposely wanna pon sch lorx.. bud the pain is reali eXcRutiAting lorx.. cos 1 of my tooth fillinf dropped out.. vv long liaox lorx.. but i nv go c dentist.. cos everydae end so late le.. bud sat nite, the pain was reali bad lorx.. lasted till sun.. so no choice le.. anywae initially i went to NDC.. but the person tell mi it cost 40 to 90 bucks juz for a check up.. n muz make apointment.. crazy.. by then i tink i die from the pain le.. or maybe my tooth rot le lorx.. so in the end i go to the school dental centre.. free treatment but onli till end of this yr..
my 1st dental appointment in abt 2 yrs.. actuali felt queasy.. but the dentist was quite nice. n lame too.. keep saying lame stuff.. but i can't laugh out loud bcos he got those instruments in my mouth.. anywae he suggested taking an injection first cos the pain might be too unbearable.. but the tot of the needle puts mi off.. so i opted for the no injection.. actuali not dat pain.. as compared to wat i felt the previous nite.. n the guy was lyk saying i'm so tolerant.. haha. he din noe it wasn't dat pain lorx.. luckily i din take injection. otherwise my jaw will be numb lorx.. anywae it was a nice experience cos the dentist also quite cute. lolx
oh yeah. my sis is back from bangkok. she bought a wallet, a pair of shoes n a top for mi. so nice~ n all pink sumore! lolx. seems lyk this 'pink' trend will be on for quite some time. lolx yeah~
yest toking to lw.. he broke up wid his gf of 1 yr le..but i tot in btwn he got other gf? so i sae he flirt le.. but he sae he's not lorx.. cos in btwn they got break le.. so watever lorx.. anywae he saes all his frens cheat on their gf.. so mean.. makes mi wonder if guys r reliable at all.. then he keep telling mi i'm the kind of ger he lyks.. short n cute.. duhx..
tOt of the dAe: if gUys cAn be tRusTed, pigs cAn fLy~
Saturday, May 08, 2004
argh.. i'm so tired now.. juz reached home not so long ago.. sumore wake up at 540 todae.. muz reach tiong bahru by 650.. but in the end i was still late.. cos i overshot n took until some int.. in the end hafta take another bus back to tiong bahru plaza.. but ama later then mi.. so i hafta wait.. so many cj ppl there.. sianz.. tot shld haf quite some mj ppl.. bud seems lyk many din turn up.. guess is too early? so onli a goup of 305 ppl there.. n mi n ama lyk 2 pathetic souls.. dumore dunno where to collect the tins.. so follow behind those 305 ppl to this central building.. but dunno which floor.. then overheard them sae 9th floor.. the lift came n they went in first.. then mi n ama shy le.. din reali wanna go in.. bud dat kah kee was lyk asking us to hurry get in.. then i sae y he so fierce.. then he sae he's protecting us from being ram(?) by cj ppl.. so we got in le.. n he got in after us.. hmmx.. maybe i shld thank him for his kind intentions? hmmx.. okiex le.. now i tink he's not dat bad afterall le.. bud seems lyk it's the first time he tok to mi after our chi cls is diff le cos in sch he lyk alwaes so dao.. anywae actuali wanna do the flag dae wid them.. bud in the end mi n ama decided not to.. so we went our separate ways.. we went to some market nearby.. cos is so early.. shopping centre also nobody.. suddenly i saw this vv familiar figure.. cos her dressing quite distinct from the rest.. then tot i saw wrongly cos din wear specs.. then as she walk closer, she saw mi.. n her eyes open vv big.. ask mi wat i doing there.. then i sae doing flagdae.. n the guy (her husband?) beside her was lyk saying since she's ur student, u muz donate more.. bud in the end she onli donated 2 bucks.. then they went for breakfast le.. well.. tink many ppl(including mi) wun tink she is staying in dat part of tiong bahru.. cos is quite run down.. so far still haven sae hu's the woman.. haha. well.. is mrs rosalind lim. when i tell ama she also vv shocked.. but anywae todae's flag dae was quite successful.. cos i finished the 200 stickers in 3 hrs, an accomplishment~ bud after dat my shoulders r aching n my feet are tired.. n seeing dat there is still 2 hrs to go.. we went for a meal n walk around first.. met kah kee again.. sae i slacking.. then i sae i alreay finish le.. but he dun believe.. so let him take the bag.. then he is convinced n even tried to take it as his.. duhx.. not funny le.. 12 then mi n ama go back to the collection venue but is so packed lorx.. more cj n sa ppl.. argh.. so pissed.. in the end mi n ama decided to walk around sumore.. wid the heavy bag of donation.. sianz.. finali when we go back at 1.. nobody le n so we can return our bags. yeah~ n finali can go home le..
oh yeah.. watched this show.. sae capricorns understand guys the best. izzit? i dun tink so.. bud maybe i can sense wat's on their minds.. but onli sometimes le.. not all the time le.. but anywae it doesn't matter, does it? cos i'm still unloved.. sigh..
actuali can't decide whether to go cls outing anot.. then my sis ask mi go shopping wid her.. so in the end nv go lorx.. cos anywae sun they all not going.. then i'll be so left out.. anywae at bugis.. to my horror of horrors, i saw another teacher.. or maybe it wasn't him? bud it sure looks alot lyk him.. mr kwek.. well.. he's sitting at this bench.. cos maybe his gf is in the changing room or wat le.. but he seems to be dozing off in the seat.. so luckily he din see mi.. phew.. hmmx.. seems lyk todae i'm destined to meet my teachers? lolx
tot of the dAe: ren sheng jiu xiang yi chang xi.. you he bi tai ren zhen?
Friday, May 07, 2004
oh yeah~ is finali the last dae of the wk! althOugh tml no lessOns.. but gOt flAg dae.. at tiOng bahru.. not dat far le.. so not bad le.. hee. cos initially tOt it wAs at wOodlAnds.. so fAr.. 7 am sumore.. cRazineSS~ hafta wake up so earli..
well.. anywae World wAr III started yest.. in my house.. all started wid my 2nd sis lorx.. tell my mum sae wanna go buy some cupboard wid her.. then my mum was so happie.. cos finali someone willing to go wid her to buy.. so after dinner, my mum ask her to go carrefour wid her.. buden my sis so lazy.. dun wan go.. so my mum not happie le.. called my da jie.. ask if she wanna go carrefour wid her.. bud she dun wan.. when she reach home.. my mum start scolding her.. sae she everytime take off dun stay at home.. alwaes go out then buy alot of things.. sumore going bangkok todae.. dunno how to save money.. blah blah blah.. then my sis also irritated.. so shout back at her.. n so start of the quarrel.. pissed.. i went to sleep cos can't study or do hw anywae.. bud hu noes.. sleep halfwae.. seems lyk the quarrel has intensified.. sort of hear my mum crying lidat.. sae next time dun wanna bother abt us anymore cos we sae she alwaes so noisy.. then my da jie n er jie blaming each other.. sae the other one's fault for saying dat.. duhx.. so my mum sort of cool down le.. n my dad came home.. quarrel again.. dunno for wat le.. tink iz my mum dunno how to discipline us or wat.. then my da jie start putting blame on all of us.. make mi feel so damn irritated lorx.. seems lyk everybody ate gun powder or wat.. but anywae it's not the first time my family got quarrels le.. bud still.. sumtimes i can't help tinking dat death is a better route? sigh.. die le then wun haf all these troubles.. but i scared of death lehx.. cos dunno how it'll feel lyk to haf no feelings.. or maybe my parents shouldn't have given birth to mi in the first place then i wun be so troubled now le.. i'm alreadi vv stressed liaox.. but they dun seem to understand.. argh.. sometimes i pray to god to take mi away but seems lyk He nv hears it.. sigh.. jia jia you ben nan nian de jing..
anywae tink my life iz a failure le.. todae went out wid val, shanz, oli, ju, zx n py for lunch.. sometimes feel kind of left out cos i can't catch wat they sae.. tink diff class jiu shi lidat one ba.. haix.. anywae todae py sae i shou le.. haha,. not lyk he vv long nv c mi lidat.. where got shou lorx.. still as fat as ever..
n yeah.. lw broke up wid his gf le.. msg mi this morning.. tell mi he vv sad.. lyk i can be of help lidat? watever le.. i juz do my part as a fren n an wei ta le..
maybe i shld stop dwelling on unhappie stuff.. tml will be a better dae.. cos my class going to haf an outing.. though juz a dinner at blk 85 market, but hope it will improve our relationships.
tot of the dae: hu r the frens dat i can truly turn to when i haf troubles? i guess is none.. cos my character does not allow mi to pour out my heart to anyone easily.. dat's wat cAprIcOrns aRe lyk..
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
good news! i passed my chem test~ on the dot. so dun hafta take retest.. lalala~ n funny thing is mrs lim was lyk telling mi i can get an A one.. tink still far from it le.. lately under so much stress.. teachers haf been telling mi i can sure get A in this n dat.. duhx.. or maybe bcos we r j2 now n A levels is coming n this is a form of encouragement? i noe is good to set goals but i tink their standards for mi is too high le.. sigh.. n i'm too lazy le.. hmm.. maybe i shld take val as example? muz start some serious work le.. n hope everyone else reading my blog does too? we muz jia you together n 'er nu si qing' can put aside first le.. lolx gambate!
but i'm wondering if i shld go genting wid my kor.. he sae july le.. buden i dun lyk taking coach lehx.. maybe if he drive better le.. but tink it would e a nice experience.. anywae he's paying for mi le.. lolx but i haven decide yet.. cos tink it's quite clse to prelims.. sigh.. shld i or shld i not? i'm in a predicament..
Saturday, May 01, 2004
todAe, is the bIggeSt dAe in my whOle 18 yrs of liFe! same goes for shAnz~ sounds a bit exaggerAted... bud well.. it's the 1st time we enter the Istana~ though there was nuthin much spectAcular.. in fact it seems abit lyk bOtaNic gArden.. there's a lake wid 2 swans on it n huge acres of grass.. so we felt dat it's quite wasteful of land? lolx bud anywae we din get into the buildings.. cos need to pay money.. so juz watched sAjc band's performance. vv cool~ though the weather was vv hot le.. lolx actuali b4 dat.. mi n shanz met at my house there cos she wanna go Artfriend.. bud pity it was closed.. n all the other art shops.. so in the end we went bugis walk around b4 going to Istana. oh.. finali took a neoprint.. the last time was a few mths ago?
btw i went to chc yest nite.. joined darren's cg.. met mic's sis.. asked mi if mic reali haf a fan club.. how m i to noe? anywae i also dun care him le.. bud dat mickey.. alwaes tink i lyk mic.. bud now change le.. keep asking mi abt andrew.. as if i lyk him lidat.. duhx..
n oh yeah.. our class won the most innOvAtive aWard fOr the Kindness ConnectiOn!? quite unexpected.. bud hu cares.. we got a hamper anywae. lolx n i passed my maths test too~ on the dot. phew.. bud still hafta go for remedial le.. so sianx..
n i change my blog music le.. bIg bIg wOrld by emElia.. vv nice bud sad sOng.. was intrOduced to thiS song when i was sec 2 or 3? when i was staying wid my aunt.. n my cousin xun tao mi.. n so graduali i also grew to lyk the song.. n anywae it depicts my feelings then.. sigh.. so lately watch the show 'xing shi zhen ji dang an'.. love song of louis koo n xuan xuan.. so sweet~ n it brought back memories for mi.. both bitter n sweet.. lyrics r vv meaningful too..
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much
miss you much...
I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much
miss you much...
Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much
miss you much...
I have your arms around me warmmm like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much
miss you much...
I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much...
i guess it's quite encouraging too? telling us dat not being loved is not exactly a big thing?
